#neededtogetthisout

[crt-cricket]

You say you're lonely and all this other shit, when you could've gotten it with me, honey. You missed your chance.

[lets-go-to-someplace]

Ok it’s time I did this. I like boys, but I also like girls, boys who want to be girls, and girls who want to be boys. It took living with my amazing adopted sibling to figure out that I am not bi like I’ve thought since high school, but actually pansexual. I’m ready to tell my friends, but not really ready to tell my family. This is really hard because I don’t know how people who have known me for years will take this news, but I can’t live a lie anymore and I want to start 2015 fresh and with my head held high and be proud of who I am. That’s all I needed to say.

[youbrokefate-blog]

You know when you have shit days, but you can get through them and they really don't seem that bad the next day. Then you have those days where everything that could possibly go wrong, does. And you're stuck wondering what the fuck the universe just threw at you. 

The last two days have been so aggravating and sad, and hurtful and just pure bullshit that I have no idea where to start to pick up the pieces. I'm kind of lost right now. It sucks running around in your mind trying to rewind and play back what the hell has happened, because it just seems to get worse and worse. I don't know where I stand right now, and that is super shitty because I'm trying to be an independent person and love myself before I can let anyone into my life, but it's not working the way I thought it would and that's really really shitty.

[awayfromthisplace]

Sharpest words

Imagine you're in bed with the one you love

Passion, desire

He murmurs "I'm sorry"

You wonder what for

"I don't feel," he continues

"I don't love you, or anyone for that matter"

You can't breathe

"I care, and I enjoy your presence,"

But what, you wonder

"but I do not love"

Silence

You feel like you're choking

Then your breath lets out

Eyes fill with tears

You're angry, but you know you can't be

Because it's not their fault

No one asks to feel empty

You can't blame them

So you blame yourself

You think you should be able to change them

And though you know you can't

You still try

Continuously striving to make them feel love

Nothing changes

You just want to be loved

Think of how you love them

Realizing they will never love you

[whatifihadaturtlenamedlewis]

Just ignore me, I'm feeling angsty

My friends think I have a weird fetish with Taylor Swift, but really I admire her for everything I'm not and she is. She's independent and strong and fights for a dream she's had for her whole life! On top of that she has total control of it- her music, her look, her image. Everything. through all the pressure and fame she is strong and level headed. Is that so bad to admire?

I want to wake up everyday and feel excited, but not overwhelmed or locked down like I do. My sister and brother have known what they want to do since they were young and are or have gloriously sauntered there way to what they want, while I just feel... stagnant. I thought about taking off from school but I know all that will happen is I'll sit around for a year, probably get a job or two for my sanity, and remain stagnant and a year behind.

Every class I take and sign up for seems like another lock away from what I really want, which to be honest, I'm not even sure! I feel like I want to perform! Act! Sing! Dance! Be noticed! this will seem vain but I want to be someone like Taylor, who can be looked up to and admired. I don't have the talent for that or the heart to disappoint my parents with that or the courage to put myself out there and watch myself fall and fail.( I take school seriously even though it makes me feel this way because I do realized I am very lucky for an opportunity to get an education, I just feel like its wasted because I don't know what to do with it to find happiness or if I ever will)

Anyone else feel like this?

[burntskiesfallingmachines]

People's notion of love existing only between 2 or more individuals seriously undermine its magnitude.

If there is one thing that can exist more abundantly than stars, it is love. (As  cringe inducing this may seem to you)

Love is so many things, too many,perhaps.

Love is as intangible as the wind, and love can be the bubbling chemical reaction in the vessels of your body.

Love is paradoxical as well. Love can be found on a gloomy day, with a mug of tea in hand. Love is also there when July's sun is kissing your shoulders.

Love hides in the nooks and corners of a conversation, love also shines brilliantly like strobe lights.

Love is picking up the best of your pens to write a letter to your friend.

Love is the silent breaking of hearts in the midst of the night. Love is also loudly proclaimed in ornamented halls.

Love amends, love shatters. Love is quiet and love is loud.

If you don't think all this is true, maybe, you're not loving enough.

[theejemz]

Ugh I just wanna tell you how I feel but my gut says that wont do. The things I'd do to have you back... I'd do anything. I've never felt this way about anyone. I've never wanted anything more than how much I want you back.