Mar 17, 2021
I'm way into my head these days, over analyzing everything. And it is frustrating as heck. Asking myself if I'm happy or not. Also, just wanting to drop everything and leave. I am not living my best life right now, this much I am fully aware of. I'm not living it how I need to. I need adventure, laughing so much it hurts. And to be carefree! I'm not being loved like I need and crave. Just 1 day back here from SC and I'm miserable again. Feeling "trapped" My hobbies I used to love no longer bring me joy. Maybe it's all depression, or maybe it's not. I dunno. All I do know is I'm crying more and laughing less. And I don't like it at all.