YOU SOMEHOW MANAGED TO FUCKING
I had severe emetophobia. Emphasis on had.
I'm gonna try to aggressively write Ribbun fics about needles and see if I can hyperfixate myself out of that one too because i usually try to bite the doctors like the feral raccoon I am when i need shots or my blood drawn. Godspeed friend. Godspeed.
You have no idea how much you have genuinely impacted my life.
This reminds me of a story. As a wee tot, I was terrified of aliens. When I was around 12 the History channel first started their alien shows. I stayed up late and one came on, couldn't find the remote and was too terrified to get up, so started watching it.
And well, I got over my alien fear that night and was actually like "wow neat," now I have alien OCs.
Good luck with your trial, friend! I became chronically ill 3 years after I stopped fearing aliens, so got over my needle fear by a different kind of exposure therapy. If you only have to do it sometimes, its okay to be scared of it. Being brave isn't about not fearing the thing, its about doing the thing still even when you're afraid.
Also because I don't know when I'll get to use this reaction I made again: