I'm disgusting
I am gross
I want to pick holes in my skin where there are flaws
There are bumps and they remind me of the bumps that I used to pick out of my skin from all those needles you gave me
I wish i could just feel that numb tired feeling again
I just want to be free i dont want all this pain too many types of pain
It hurts so much
I know it wasnt actually right
I was too small you should not have been giving me that
But i want it again
I just want it again
I do not care that it is wrong.








