I’m Not Okay
I'm swimming in the darkness of my mind...just bobbing in and out of my feelings. Trying to stay a float, struggling to calm my breath down. Needing to find peace...but the loud crashing waves and the string stormy skies never cease. I don't think I'll ever be okay... The pain I feel is a slow burning, the kind that leaves you aching for days on end. Pulling away every time someone gets close, wanting them to let go, but at the same time begging them withyour eyes to notice you. It all comes in waves, leaving you more broken then before...because when it hits, it hits hard. This kind of pain, unfathomable to a person who hasn't yet felt it and no explanation needed for those who have felt it. Oh how I would give anything for it to end.
