Time to come clean…
I didn’t get into the Cherry Blossom race, mostly because I didn’t even register. I’m not even sure why I didn’t, but I think I was intimidated by the thought of running 10 miles.
I am soooo fat! I am at the point of breaking. Part of me wants to start right now, but the fatty (and the normal person I hope to become) want to enjoy the holidays without worry.
A friend of mine recently posted, about her struggles after success. And while the catalyst for her struggles was due to negativity, I could still very much relate. She completed her post by challenging the readers. “Is this who and where you want to be, how you want to be?”
I can tell you, for me, it is a resounding NO!
I am a completely different person right now, than I was a year ago. I am miserable, and I feel sorry for Adria every day. Because I am not happy with myself, I am just in general not happy.
So here I am to commit to change
1. I am going back to Weight Watchers in the new year.
2. I will go back to planning and tracking my food.
3. I am going to sign up for the Lawyers Have Heart 10k. It is in June, and I am confident I can get back up to a 10k by that time. It was also my first ever 10k, and race, and I think running it will rebuild my confidence.
4. I will also look for a 5k to complete sometime in March, so I have a goal to shoot for.
And changing to make myself better is not just about health and fitness. For whatever reason I have put my career development on hold, and that needs to stop too.
5. I will sign up for and complete my 35 hours of classroom training to get my PMP.
Help hold me accountable. If I don’t post my weekly weigh in starting the week of January 5th, feel free to pester me. If I haven’t signed up for the 10k by Friday, feel free to send me a reminder. I need to rejoin this community, and share more than baby photos. You all helped me break the hump I was stuck on in the 260s last time, to get to my low in the 210s, and I know with the support here, and from my family, I can do it again.
If you read all this, thank you!
