#neekie

[jamaicaneccentric]

Overwhelming feeling of wanting to be in someone's life but can't because: 1. I'm ready but I'm not ready, I wanna love your angels and your demons but I'm afraid to expose you to mine 2. You're not ready, you're self-centered (in a good way) let go keep growing out of that place you're in now 3. Isn't really a reason but, DISTANCE. I LOVE to touch, cuddle if I can't I get grumpy 4. I don't know how you feel or if you can atm Maybe I'll take a chance just not today

[jamaicaneccentric]

I just wanna be happy that's all

[jamaicaneccentric]

Lips are my favorite

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[jamaicaneccentric]

Sai😍😍😍...

[jamaicaneccentric]

This heat makes me wanna go back to this cut

[jamaicaneccentric]

Heart broken

The first and only type of heartbreak i have experienced in my 22 years on this earth was caused by someone i was told to call my "daddy". Not in a romatic sense but in the sense that he was supposed to be the man in my life that i looked up to the man who was supposed to show me what to expect from a man in his actions to his wife his children and things he does for himself. I honestly tried to find something he has done to say okay he isnt a bullshit parent but i cant see it. To hear people say my dad isnt around wish i had one like yours i cringe a little because I dont have it any better he is here as reminder of what i shouldn't settle for, a reminder of what i dont want for my future children. I think its time i stop allowing myself to feel responsible that its me, something i should have done that i have yet to why he is such an inconsiderate ass of parent. I don't love easily nor do i hate easily but if you give me a reason to or continuously push me away intentionally or not i will stop trying completely. Cant blame myself anymore and i am tired of hoping.

[jamaicaneccentric]

If I don't die from old age I'll die from some form of injustice