#negative mun

[snarkytwinblades-blog]

I’m so frickin’ stressed tonight because of my damn family and then I want to come on here to do stuff but I’ve got nothing to do, which just adds to the stress. I’ll probably just reblog some memes and go watch something to make me feel better. If anyone needs me, I’ll be on discord BioticRogue #5757

[violeteyedraven-blog]

That moment when you piss you boyfriends off because you don't want your sides rubbed....there goes that good mood I woke up with earlier....

[shuyukiamurosa]

Just gonna put this under a read more so I’m not clogging up anyone’s dash with my crying...

I honestly made a mistake today, I scrolled through my inbox and my depression took over. I saw how needy I was when I first started roleplaying, always asking the other mun if they have my reply and actually talking to people. Now it’s just...I can’t do it anymore. I still have fears that I’m just an annoyance for all the people I attempt to roleplay with. I saw how many people deleted their accounts and I could only think of one thing and that I was so fucking annoying that they had to get away from me.

I feel like I’m not good enough anymore, always have been feeling this way and I don’t know what to do anymore. Maybe it’s me as a mun, maybe I’m not a good enough writer, maybe it’s my muse? Dunno, not many are willing to roleplay with an OC cause they fear it maybe a mary sue. I try not to be, if I am, sorry. I just...don’t feel wanted.

In all honestly, I just wanna stop roleplaying and throw in the towel. I dunno if I wanna delete this blog or archive it and bury it under a new blog and keep going. But it’s whatever. I don’t know yet, I just don’t. I hate feeling this way but I hate not being able to expand worth anything.

I’m just gonna log off, delete the app on my phone and pretend Tumblr doesn’t exists. If you want my Discord to talk to me for tonight then it’s in my rules.

I honestly give up.

[shuyukiamurosa]

Man, ever since that anon asked me if I was active, maybe I'm not. Maybe I just convinced myself that I am always active so I don't worry about people who don't rp with me. I might as well just give up on roleplaying. I don't get any activity with anything so why even bother anymore?

[cinnamontrolls-blog]

May be inactive for a couple of days

Not feeling it really

That and work is tying me down

So

Uh

Yeah

[rozaliared]

i plan on leaving the fandom soon like holy fuck its too fucking huge and it’s kinda pissing me off. 

im out. see ya.

i dont feel so great anyways. =^=

i dont feel like posting art so often anymore because i got far more important shit to do... T_T

[orphanedaliencat]

(thx dad for suddenly attacking my self esteem again)

[orphanedaliencat]

Offline

(I don't feel like roleplaying at the moment, and I apologize. But I will be on skype, if you're interested in talking

I'm really sorry, I just feel... Well, I'll put what I told Jackie.

"I suddenly felt all upset again… broke, kind of… and like there’s just this darkness swirling around my heart, corrupting it…"

"It’s been like that for a few weeks, where I’ve gotten easily upset or depressed..."