Jul 17, 2024
Im wondering if I'm really even needed here. I love my family. alot. but feel like maybe it would be ok if we weren't a team anymore. Being leader is so stressful, and im beginning to question it again. Why pick me. Im irresponsible and flaky. Ti (My boyfriend) ((not his real name but we will roll with it)) was just telling me about how relaxed I am now that im spending more time with him. and I am to an extent, but mostly I just kinda feel isolated a little bit. I don't know what anyone is doing. I don't even remember what day of the week it is. I feel like im floating. I just want to be grounded. I want to be better then I am. I want to be and do something that matters. I want to feel like I matter.
