It’s official, I hate celebrating holidays/ my birthday with my cousin.
If I don’t get to celebrate the holiday by myself or with friends it’s not fun. She micromanages everything. I can’t do anything without her fucking approval otherwise she throws a fit.
It’s damn near midnight and the only thing I wanted to do was put out candy for our neighbors and anyone who walked past our room.
She bought a decoration I told her let’s use the decoration on a small side table and then we can pour candy around in a circle and people can just grab some on their way to their room or wherever they’re going. 
She tells me know we need to put them in little saran baggies or a little paper baggies or in a bowl. But the saran wrap doesn’t stay closed. We don’t have a little snack baggies to put any of the candy and we only have our baggies which we kind of need to put food in. And I don’t feel like putting out three or four different bowls which are just regular sized soup bowls of candy. Because then you can’t see the really cute decoration we bought. so she said she’s going to buy some baggies but whenever she does groceries it takes hours two days to get it done we didn’t get our bags delivered tonight. So I said fuck it grabbed our own Ziploc bags which we had 15 of and I divvied the candy up as equally as I possibly could into all 15 bags. And I go to ask her can I put out the candy or did we expect to actually save some for ourselves. She says no wait don’t put it out yet I want to choose what I want from it because I do want to save some for ourselves. There are literally four different candy bars and I asked her which ones she wanted me to save she says to wait until she gets out so she can pick the ones she wants. I got these bags ready around 11 at night. Because I’ve been doing laundry all damn day and I’ve been waiting to get notified that we got our other baggies so I could’ve made the small bags of candy. Now that I have them already put together I still have to wait. 
The only fucking thing I wanted to do for this fucking holiday that I wasn’t going to be able to properly enjoy this year was to put out candy for our neighbors because sharing joy in the form of chocolate makes me happy. And it’s damn near midnight on Halloween and I still haven’t been able to.
I give up on celebrating holidays if I don’t get to celebrate them with friends or my way because for the last almost 6- 7 years I haven’t enjoyed the fucking holiday.  
I’m sorry about the rambling in the ranting I really hope everyone else had a wonderful Halloween.