#neil todd

[dontwannastudybutihaveto]

And there was something 'bout you that now I can′t remember

It's the same damn thing that made my heart surrender

And I miss you on a train, I miss you in the morning

I never know what to think about

Do you think I have forgotten about you?

[toindeedbepretentious]

[spiderlangdon]

neil perry headers 😔 i miss him!!! 💐💖🧚🏼‍♀️

twitter @remusrights

[ripariansoliloquy]

as a trans-masc gay theatre kid whose chosen name is neil, is it too much to ask for that i meet my todd?

[deadpoetssocietymemes]

[lickingteeth]

i’m sorry but that scene where todd is out in the snow after hearing neil is dead and starts kind of having a panic attack outside? yeah who did that? cause dude it’s 1 am and i’m crying my eyes out violently. he just goes “it’s beautiful” and the boys all smile. and then he just lunges forward, sobbing and curling into a ball in the snow, and the boys all try and help him but he’s just so upset and convinced himself that his dad did it or some shit. neil wasn’t sad. he couldn’t be. WHAT THE FUCK. i haven’t actually cried this hard in so long my chest hurts. i know he’s not a real character but FUck. if neil would have just waited it out. he could have seen how much better things get after high school. if his dad weren’t so fucking horrible. if the people around him had been just a little better. things would have been different. if his dad hadn’t been so rash. he wouldn’t have felt so trapped. if the world would have been just a BIT better. he wouldn’t have BEEN trapped. fuck everything and fuck this. i think the thing that hurts more is how i imagine todd dealt with his death for the rest of the year. imagining him graduating without neil. FUCK ME.

[dontwannastudybutihaveto]

// And think of all the time I'll, I'll have with you //

(Anderperry x Nettles)

[toindeedbepretentious]