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Nemesissy. (2009, April 3rd). Nemesissy's ASCII Topic: UNCUT EDITION. Retrieved from https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/boards/585451-alphabet-zoo/45805315?page=1

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@nemesissy I'm thinking abt some stuff birlinterrupted has said abt dysphoria as being an unhelpful framing for some gender/embodiment stresses cis women face, both in that it frames dysphoria as irremediable & draws a 1:1 equivalence btw dysphoria & the internalised components of body fascism / misogyny, which can operate separately from dysphoria (eg: trans women who aren't actively dysphoric but are experiencing ED flares)

mmmmm, i see what you're saying, and im not sure i agree entirely. i hesitate to try to delineate Trans Experiences from Cis Experiences, namely because the distinction between trans/cis, when used this way, presupposes an a priori gender dis/identification that i don't think is a thing. like, i don't think there is a Cis™ experience of wo/manhood, but instead that cis is an empty signifier for a range of experiences not generally interpreted as/subjected to the lens of transness, a range that is constantly changing as gender does.

i guess i mean to say, as someone "formally diagnosed" with several body-perception related "disorders", that parsing what comes from where doesn't really feel useful. i know in my own experience, the feeling of an "ed flare" / body dysmorphic episode and gender dysphoria "proper" aren't possible to or worth distinguishing

like i think it's completely fair to say that conditions of misogyny, body fascism, white supremacy, ableism, sizeism, everything have a hand in producing the experience understood as GD, not so much that there's a 1:1 equivalence between them but that they're bound up in producing each other

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Nemesissy. (2008, June 27th). Nemesissy's topic *WARNING: May contain traces of ASCII*. Retrieved from https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/boards/585451-alphabet-zoo/43926440

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Nemesissy. (2008, June 27th). Nemesissy's topic *WARNING: May contain traces of ASCII*. Retrieved from https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/boards/585451-alphabet-zoo/43926440

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Nemesissy. (2008, January 5th). Nemesissy's ASCII t0pix. Retrieved from https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/boards/585451-alphabet-zoo/40591646

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nemesissy replied to your post: nonbinary

This is very much in line with my experiences of gender as a younger, more conventionally-androgynous person, with the significantly different texture of being primarily brain-disabled at the time; I think a lot about how this not-being-socially-gendered-in-a-consistent-way is not a narrative I hear from other afab trans people very often, and I'm curious about why

i’m actually also talking about mental disability: i’m autistic, and that’s what i’m referring to here. i only developed significant physical disabilities in the past couple years. even when i thought i was a girl i talked a lot about how my particular autistic phenotype (monotone, ‘robotic’ and unintentionally authoritative mannerisms, ignorance of conventional femininity) made people treat and perceive me as not-a-girl. (and like... idt i was ever really perceived as transgressing from “girl” gender norms, i.e. being gnc, so much as already being something else.)

is it really uncommon? huh. i’d be interested to know how much more common it is among those of us who have been disabled from birth, and also among those of us who have some kind of identification with gay effeminacy [or like... being gnc from a ‘male’ template? idk how to phrase that lmao.] bc i think that kind of affect tends to come thru even when ur afab

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nemesissy replied to your post:

Did anyone else amuse themselves as a kid reading...

these are not mutually exclusive answers

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“there is an opossum living in the attic crawlspace above our rooms,...”

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the house I spent my later childhood in had a network of crawlspaces and 

de facto storage areas next to and above the second floor. my mom's

 bedroom had birds living above it, and sometimes I'd come in in the

morning and hear them singing; I had a colony of horny squirrels living

by/above my room

Huh, interesting that they were on the second floor... hillside house? The house I grew up in is super ancient, and when my parents bought it as a fixer-upper they brought in someone to evacuate the squirrels from the wallspaces, which never did work very well. There was a squirrel living/gnawing in the wall next to my headboard who would make all kinds of noise at odd hours, and sometimes there was nothing to be done but to bang on the wall to try to get it to quiet down for a while. I also once had to rescue a very frightened little opossum from the basement stair; mama was not far away in the crawlspace, so I just opened the hatch and let them reunite peacefully. Poor things.  In the previous house, I vaguely remember an incident with a bat in the middle of the night. They tried to herd it out a window with tennis rackets; this might have been the first serious demonstration of how intensely neurotic my parents are, because they were both acting like the black death itself was flapping around the house, threatening to anoint them with bubos and a swift and hideous demise. I think eventually the bat just fucked off on its own. a wise move.