#neptuneispurple

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avoidant

You can’t push people away and expect them to stay at arms length within your reach. In the real world people walk, they set their gait at a constant pace that your frail feet will never catch. All you can do is grip them tight and hope they can carry your weight well enough to drag you along 

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glamrock freddy anyone?

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nikito

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Ugly

I know I am ugly. Sometimes people try to convince me that I am not ugly.

They tell me that beauty is only skin deep, But I am still ugly.

I see the way people stare when they cross me on the street, I hear what they whisper to their friends and family, I feel the daggers piercing my back when I turn away, I taste the salty words that dance on my tongue when someone who is truly beautiful passes by me. 

I have felt fear and anger and hate, I have dissected my image in the mirror time and time again, I have gotten the word ugly tattooed on my heart, permanently engraved into my very being.

So please do not try to convince me, That I am not ugly.

Because at the end of the day, I’ll still hate myself in every single way,

Even if I am beautiful.

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child prodigy

i’m not wise, i’m stupid i give people advice i haven’t learnt to take yet  in hopes that repeating it so many times will help me remember it when the time comes 

for now i'll fuel my love into my friends my things  my mom and my kitty

in hopes it will one day pour back into me  and i will love myself as completely as I love them