Jul 25, 2021
i feel trapped
i feel trapped in my head
my home
my room
my work
my thoughts
my feelings
i feel like i cant be myself to anyone or anywhere. school used to be my haven. id have time for myself and just be alone doing my own thing. i felt free being alone cos i didnt feel lonely. it felt like i finally could just keep to myself. no performing
and now that thats gone...now that im out of college and the pandemic still goes one––i feel like theres nothing for me anymore. its just time for chores, time for my parents to boss me around, time for work, time for my mentor, time for my sister, and 5 mins for me.
when will i ever have time for myself? when can i feel that unexpainable feeling of peace and calm when i sit alone at a bench at school