im feeling quite alone these days, or maybe the word is 'neglect'
im feeling neglected alot these days. Ever since my sibling started school again, AND that they got into a relationship, they've just been so neglectful of spending time with me. and its not like i want them to be with me at all times, its just before, we had time to talk and be there for each other. But now its like theyre NEVER there for me.
I'm always put on hold, and i dont have anyone to talk to physically.
because my mom goes to me to bitch about my dad
my dad goes to me to bitch about my mom
and i used to go to my sibling to bitch about mom and dad, or just talk and bond
and i know i get that they have mroe time with friends and they found someone who gets them and all that. thats fine––but theyre doing the thing i warned them about and thats neglecting me, and their other responsibilities and people in their lives
theyre world's become all them and im annoyed and feel alone. and they say theyre getting better but theyre not
and here, i feel like a child getting so angry and wanting to throw a tantrum cos my parents go to me for their fucking problems, and my sibling just gets to be cooped up in their side of the room avoidingthe bullshit happening
so i end up the one having to fix everything and handle shit. My parents go to me for their shit, and my sibling gets to have their special time.
its frustrating and annoying that i really try to tell them that i need their help, and i need them to remember that we also exist and they cant always spend time with their partner.
i need them too and they just put me on hold. im just so angry and frustrated it makes me cry
i feel like i am not seen, i am neglected, and unappreciated in this house cos everyone is either in their own shit, mad at someone else and wants to bitch about the other, or just busy.
im sick and tired of having to be like a therapist to everyone and also feeling neglected. its like they just go to me for something and writing this makes me just so angry and it makes me wanna cry.