#nessian ask

[propshophannah]

For me it's hard to like Nessian, I do not like Cassian's actions with her, he drives her away and then wants to approach roughly, I know he has his reasons for being like that, but I sincerely like to imagine her with some another person. Thoughts?

I totally get what you’re saying. It’s honestly annoying to read sometimes because he comes off like a jackass. I could see her with someone else if Cassian can’t break off from being Rhys’s creature (for lack of a better phrase). She deserves to be someone’s number 2, not their number 2. If Cassian can’t get his shit together and choose Nesta over Rhys/the Inner Circle, they won’t be together.

And I don’t mean that in a “choose your significant other over your friends” kind of way. I mean that in a… Cassian can’t bow to two High Lord’s kind of way. Right now Nesta doesn’t have a place among the Inner Circle, and truthfully, I don’t know that she ever will. Not as a subordinate anyway. She is not a follower, she is a leader. So she can’t flourish and find herself if she’s stuck living under Feyre and Rhys’ thumb. She needs to be powerful in her own right and come back to them with something to offer so that they will respect her and so that she’ll respect herself. Then Cassian can find a middle ground between her and his friends and between being someone’s mate and a servant of his High Lord. Right now he can’t do both and it’s making him come off like a jackass. He’s like a wolf trying to live between two different wolf packs. It’s not sustainable and eventually both pack alphas (Rhys and Nesta) are going to ask him to pick a side, and when he can’t do that or he picks Rhys, he’s going to suffer.

Ultimately, if Nesta and Cassian are endgame, I don’t see Cassian continuing to take orders from Rhys before he takes them from Nesta. ESPECIALLY not if they’re mates. It would put Cassian in a bad spot and I honestly think Rhys loves him too much to do that to him. I low key think Rhys is FULLY aware that he is part of the problem between Nesta and Cassian. Or at least aware the he is, in no way, helping their situation. But he’s too triggered by Nesta to see his role clearly. He will tho. Eventually. When he sees how his behavior is damaging Cassian. At least I hope. And if not, he will if/when Cassian chooses Nesta over him.

[thewayshedreamed]

Thank you for the update but I’m nervous about the new job with their relationship!

I can understand that, anon!

Cassian is on his own growth journey, even if he’s not as aware of it as Nesta is her own. The way he allows his wants/ needs to be discounted rather than daring to hurt anyone he cares about, assuming self-sacrifice is the only way to keep the things he holds dearest (rather than assuming a balance is possible). Keeping things locked down tight to avoid affecting others with his emotions.

This will be a learning experience for him in its own right— from communication to evaluating what’s best for him.

Stay tuned! ♥️

[thewayshedreamed]

I ve been recently reading "the hating game" and it has soooooooo nessian vibes. But in their case i think it would be much darker and heavier. This anguish and sexual tension would be too obvious and visible 😍 i think they would even try to hurt each other just to be a winner.

I love "The Hating Game" so much!

It definitely does give Nessian vibes, and I agree that they both have some trauma to bring to the table that could teeter on sensitive territory in their little game of push and pull. I also think Cassian wouldn't resist being an insufferable flirt when it served him properly, especially since it would get under Nesta's skin faster than anything else!

I can definitely see what you mean about them pushing each other to their limits in their attempts to be victorious, but I also see a soft accompaniment to that, too, depending on how far they've pushed.

I see them celebrating their glory, but having a sudden pang of guilt they can't identify. I see them potentially orchestrating this master plan, only to pull the plug prematurely when they realize the stakes. I see them going to every limit, yet without realizing it, they draw the line at each other's softest spots, their Achilles heels. And I also see them being a little in denial about what that all means until it becomes painfully obvious.

Thanks for sending this ask!! In the funny ways of the world, it got me inspired to write some Nessian I've been working on. It's not THG inspired, but Nessian nonetheless.