thinking about "anyone ever teach you to drink like a man?" something about swansea dragging daisuke down with him, but only into the greatest years of his life. something about "if you're going to drink, i'd rather you do it at home." something about acknowledging daisuke not as a child but as a fledgling man, something that not many people have acknowledged him as yet. something about daisuke finally getting the bonding he wanted with swansea. something about daisuke finding twofold comfort in alcohol, because it dulls the pain but it also brings him closer to the man he's dying for the approval of. something about daisuke being more scared than he lets on, maybe more scared than he realizes, but swansea can see it in the way his shoulders are always tense now and how he can't let a comfortable silence rest and trying to offer this kid the one thing that's always made him feel better. something about the hangover that feels like an axe to the head
