#new year rant

[aahdraws]

hellooo 2017 !!! 10 days into the new year and i’m finally updating , holy shit! Dino skulls i drew while watching Walking With Dinosaurs for what probably was 50th time in my life, available to be tattooed by yours truly if you find yourself in Helsinki, Finland. ♥

this year kicked off real well for me, i’ve already got to do some pretty cool tattoo stuff, which you can check out here, on my insta !! can’t wait to do more ! for regular art WIPs i’ll be using my super ancient twitter, come hang out with me there (2011 me was a fucking dweeb, but i’m keeping the tweets for posterity)!

YEAhhhhh !!! hope this year is a good one for all of y’all! !

[xxtylerhaileyxx-blog]

New Resolutions are dumb...

A New Year And New Resolutions Why do you need New Years as an excuse to prolong your goal? If anything you should just work for your goal right then and there instead of delaying what you want in life... Basically what I'm trying to say is that New Years Resolutions are dumb.

[roxy4life2]

"new year new me! "

It's already the new year and I know it's going to be shit with how everything is going ONE DAY ONE? and it's day 2 and I already want to kill myself, what the hell I can't catch a break

I already feel like I don't have friends.. The fact is I barely talk to anyone.. I look around and realize I'm lonely , it seems to me that i barely have friends, no romantic interest or partner (who would want to even get with me) and a shit family (because of one guy) my life is already shit enough and I don't expect it to suddenly get better because it won't, and I'm just suffering with it... I want to at least get something right... At least let me have something for once.. A friend that'll stay.. Or a boyfriend that actually cares and won't leave..

But delusions delusions! Love how this new year is going guys!

[majorbitchwillgraham]

I think I am not a person that cries often. I can count with one hand the times I have cried in a year.

It had been a while since I had any "fight" with my Dad, ever since I live by my own and I guess he was doing a great effort not to waste the days we got to be together.

So my Dad makes me cry but not just that, not just cry but sob. It doesn't even matter what the argument was about but it's always what he does after.

He is always a loving Dad, until he is not. When he gets mad at me I feel that he really hates me, and I feel fear inside. I feel that he is going to abandon me. Then he also gets mad at my mom when she didn't do anything in the first place.

The new year plans, cancelled, ruined for me and my mom just because he didn't feel like it, we had a normal lunch and then he resumed being mad and we spent the time at the hotel room doing nothing. And they left the next day.

I feel mad or sad or both because this is not fair.

And my mom had bought a present for him, just fancy chocolates that she saw in a store, but she was happy when she bought them. She said "I think your Dad will like this" and smiled. She gave it to him and he seemed to be grateful for it.

Then the next day when they leave before me and I go back to the hotel room, there is only my stuff left, and I see next to the coffee machine the fancy chocolates my mom gave to him. They were actually hidden next to the machine. They were hidden because he didn't forget them, he left them there on purpose. Not valuing my mom's gift, rejecting it. What did she even do? The argument was with me.

I saw that and I instantly felt something like anger rising inside of me and all I could said was "goddammit". Or something like that, in spanish. I started pacing around the room. Then I couldn't identify exactly what emotion I was feeling, all I could think over and over is him rejecting her gift and her love, and for what. For his pride? He is there rejecting her gifts and her love, when he is lucky she has never left him. He didn't see how she was happy when she bought it and said "your Dad will like this"

I couldn't understand why, but then I covered my face with my hands and started crying, then sobbing. Even silently screaming. And more desperate sobbing, and screaming. Oh, this has happened many times. It just hadn't happened in a while. Anger or sadness? Both? Maybe.

I kept thinking and thinking, why do I feel like that. Until finally a word came to my mind. Cruelty.

[vlvtcake]

Fuck new year, it's always noisy and loud

[impala-dreamer]

Happy New Year!

What can we say about 2021? 

It sucked. Big, nasty balls sucked. 

What can we say we learned?

Love like there’s no tomorrow, because there may not be. 

Be kind to yourself as well as others. 

Do the scary things because they’re worth it. 

Take time to get better, find happiness, relearn how to just be.

2021 was definitely a year that taught me many things about myself and about the people who care about me and as hard as it was, I wouldn’t give up the experiences for anything. I have learned to take care of myself and to speak out when I need to. To ask for help and to accept it when it’s offered. To Love Myself for the first time in my life. 

It’s been a ride. 

To the ones who got me through: @mom-and-popcosmic @covered-byroses @because-imma-lady-assface @justcallmeasmodeus @feelmyroarrrr @kittenofdoomage - I love you guys so much <3

To the ones who always check in and make me smile or light up my activity feed: @assbuttaf @winchestershiresauce @deanwinchesterswitch @mariekoukie6661 @the-wounded-healer05 @cosicas-cuquis @happilysparklyunknown @chenshemesh1​ - you all rock so hard <3 

To those who light up my dash, the creators I stalk, the fans who support my work, the anons, the silent readers - you all keep me coming back here day after day after day. You’re awesome. 

To everyone - I hope your new year is kind to you. I hope you find your joy again. I hope you remember that you are a light in this world and worth every happiness and peace. 

Happy New Year <3

[that-girl-in-the-shadows]

Okay. Listen up.

Last year put me through one heck of a ride.

It smushed my brain with so much knowledge and tasks that my brain feels bigger.

It made my eyes so red and sore from crying that it’s become part of my look.

It’s taken all of my sleep that I no longer know what it feels like to actually have 8 hours of sleep. It’s made me stay up so late in the night that I developed insomnia and woke me up too early in the morning that I no longer know how to function without coffee.

Basically it ruined me. Broke me. Just when I thought I had made it and here I am again.

So much happened over the year, the good was over too quickly but the bad lasted until it left a permanent burn mark in my heart.

By the end of the year my heart was so crumbled and crushed that I entered the New Year with only remnants of what used to be my heart.

Last year tore me apart again and again and I survived that. I managed to crawl my way into this new year and I am filled with new energy.

So 2017, I don’t know what you’ll bring but I am not going to give up. You are not going to be the end of me because I am stronger.

Go ahead then, bring me what you’ve got! I’m ready!

[rationalmagic]

A lot of stuff has happened in the past couple of days, not explicitly to do with me but with my family, going through a rough time and it's made me realise that the whole new year new me is absolute bullshit. How is the changing of a year going to change how a person is made? Or how they think/ treat others? I know some people will make and achieve life changing resolutions but the vast majority won't/ give up in the first few days. As of right now, I don't see 2017 being any better than 2016. The New Year's Eve/ New Year's Day have probably been the two worst days of my life so far. And this is just the beginning, of the year and all the pain. I'm not really enjoying social media right now, these whole New Years resolutions and I just wanted to be honest to anyone else who feels the same way I do. You don't have to pretend. Fuck all of it.