#newt posts

[flock-talk]

“It’s give all birds a bag of millet day, if you did not provide the goods you now owe 6 sacks of millet”

[flowers-and-fury]

I really never think I'm that old and out of touch until people start talking about music artists I've never heard of

[newtsoftheworldunite]

Saying Goodbye to the Chagim

On the 24th of Elul, several days after leading Elul services at our small Reconstructionist minyan, I tested positive for COVID. This was only my second direct encounter with the plague of our times, but the first one, back in 5782, left me regularly gasping for breath and with my immune system in tatters.

So I entered the holiest days of the year alone on my sickbed instead of gathering with my community, checking my oxygen levels regularly to see if I'd need to ask for a ride to the ER. By Yom Kippur, I was testing negative, but still wiped out and quarantining. Rather than fasting to stand in the divine presence, I feasted between prayers, because my body couldn't endure deprivation.

The next day I started building my sukkah in increments of thirty minutes maximum. My heart rate would spike, and I'd go and lie down for hours to recover. By the very end of the chag, it had something like walls and a roof. I didn't eat or sleep in it, but I made it.

Often, we approach our holidays as a performance, with a list of mitzvot, minhagim, meals and prayers without which the day isn't complete. But entering this year brought low like this reminded me that they're not about doing, but about pausing and recognizing the moment that we're in. Presence, rather than performance. Not to do, but to be here in the world at this time and to really know it.

May we be, and may we rest, as we exit the chagim and continue into the greatest and most joyful jewish holiday. Shabbat shalom.

[flowers-and-fury]

Going on vacation tomorrow and I have one of those high cut bathing suits, but I was too broke to get a bikini wax after Earl's $5000 tummy ache, so. I'm gonna attempt it myself

[flowers-and-fury]

My beautiful idiot son ate then threw up a string yesterday, then gave me a scare later in the day by going into a sleep so deep I had trouble waking him up, thus prompting a panicked scramble to the ER only to find out that he was fine and just had an upset stomach from throwing up the string and just needed to deep sleep for recovery

$3000 tummy ache

Anyway here he is, home from his sleepover, still baked on pain meds

Everyone say hi Earl

[flowers-and-fury]

Oh god, I didn't feel like putting makeup on today but that means I forgot to colour in my eyebrows so I'm at my dress code corporate job with bleached brows 😬

[flowers-and-fury]

Tagged by my new friend @bisexualincarnate for my 13 songs on repeat! I wanted to be so cool and have a bunch of really obscure post punk music on here but that wasn't my destiny, apparently

All my love - Noah Kahan

Non believer - London Grammar

Soft Spine - Spiritbox

All the things she said - Harrison

Striptease - FKA twigs

Reincarnated - Kendrick Lamar

Baby give me more - Artemas

Let go of time - Vision Video

Brujería - Caín Culto

Black rainbow - spiritbox

A strange moon/selenophilia - Die Spitz

Sans soleil - alexisonfire

Destroya - MCR

Tagging @clownarchivism, @medouse and @oldxenomorph

[flowers-and-fury]

I just......the crash outs I'm having over Hudson Williams are sooo deeply reminiscent of my crashouts over Chris Pine back in the day. I cannot BELIEVE this is happening to me again