The atmosphere is frosted aboard the vessel he resides. There’s a vent in his room, accommodating whatever specific air his human lungs need, drilling a constant cold breeze across his back.
His head is hung low, remnants of blood dripping from his lip, from the sᴀᴍᴇ sᴄᴀʀ on his nose, even the insides of his ears leaking. It’s difficult to think, to comprehend anything going on around him. They drag him to his room, treat him like they would a corpse with such careless gestures to a point where he thinks he is a corpse, walking, breathing, a mind lifeless and blank.
There’s only so many times he can tell himself ‘ɪᴛ ᴄᴏᴜʟᴅ ʙᴇ ᴡᴏʀsᴇ.’
His arm isn’t cooperating. The technology isn’t binding well with his body, and whatever black magic they infused makes it twitch, a mind of its own, something he can’t control yet. The metal scrapes against the floor as it jerks every so often and his fingertips press into the ground, scratching the imaginary nails of black grips across the grooves of the panels. He hadn’t had enough time to forget his arm was cut away before they gave him a new one, the blood of Sendak’s considerate amputation still spewn across the floor, dried, just another mark to add to the previous inhabitants’ legacies.
Blood mixes with his tears drying his cheeks. They’re making him a monster, an ᴀʙᴏᴍɪɴᴀᴛɪᴏɴ. The prosthetic is to be used as a weapon and he can feel its influence creeping into his mind, the cybernetics controlling him rather than vice versa.
Kelmar wasn’t on shift when they put him away. Either way the guards don’t give him a second glance, a normality for Galra prisoner procedure, especially their Champion.
As the blood drips, he hears a sound. The cell doors sliding open, a quiet slip of metal surfaces. The figure behind smiles, untapped by the state of the man in front of him, a helmet under his arm. Shiro looks up at him, the quiet whirs of his still twitching arm the only thing breaking their silence. Kelmar gives him a look, beckoning him, as if to say, come on, get out of here. The door is wide open.
There’s no fighting today. They threw him in the room less than an hour ago (if he has any grasp on time), why would they request his presence again? Normally it’s hours, even days before they call on him again, a forgotten experiment. Yet, here the guard is, telling him to step outside with nothing more than a smile on his face, a narrow of his eyes (isn’t wearing a helmet supposed to be regulation?).
At first, he feels like Shiro feels he’s being ᴛᴇᴀsᴇᴅ. He wouldn’t put it beyond the guard, the value of his life probably slim compared to the friendship he hoped they’d shared. He doesn’t move, still-watering eyes gazing up in disbelief, hoping the empire wouldn’t take away his only friend who can’t be thrown into the arena. Kelmar had once asked him what he would do if he escaped, if he had lead him to an escape pod rather than to where he’d been ordered to bring him, and Shiro believed it to be a trap. Maybe it was a precursor to his current events. Sendak could be just around the corner, or even worse, Zarkon himself, and as soon as he rounds the corridor a claw would rip him from the very air he breathes and drag him down, back into the darkness, back into the cold, the agony —— The galra’s voice derails his train of thought.
❝ What are you waiting for? Are you sᴄᴀʀᴇᴅ? ❞
Shiro looks to the empty hallway, to Kelmar, and back to the hallway. He wants to ask why but suddenly, adrenaline tells him it would be wasting time. He is afraid to escape, after the torture Sendak put him through last time he tried. He knows they won’t punish him with death, not yet, not before he ʟᴇᴀʀɴs ʜɪs ʟᴇssᴏɴ. That is what scares him. He can feel the hot breath on his neck now, the panting exasperation, the needles beneath his skin.
Even if it is a trap, with his new gift, he could disarm Kelmar, shoot him with his own gun, and make a run for it. It’s that mind made for leadership generating every possible outcome of the situation. In a spur of the moment, he ignores probability, possibility, and pries himself from the ground long enough to step forward, finally able to look Kelmar in his eyes without a slab of metal blocking the two, the garish display of violence he is fully exposed.
“ No, ” he answers simply. Impulse tells him to run. False loyalty, fear, tells him to stay, to follow their orders, do whatever they want him to do to negate possible consequence. He finds a balance of the two and waits, following his own advice.
Patience yields focus, after all.