#niel.rambles

[childofthewinged]

i did it! i lit a candle and incense after weeks of crying and bedrotting 💗 im kinda proud of myself 🥹

[childofthewinged]

whew haven't posted here in a while (life is busyyyy) but i caught a really nasty cold that had me having a fever for 3 days straight, i was crying and begging for it to go away cus i have to start work, i just lit my incense, prayed, and hoped for the best AND IT DID!! woke up at 5 am, fever gone and motivated (thanks apollo i guess you liked my raspy ass singing) (i work in a laboratory as a trainee medical technologist btw lol)

also, i bought a new batch of incense sticks, turns out sandalwood smells... like it's definitely something! 😃

[childofthewinged]

i am running out of incense 😭😭💔 might take at least a week for a new one to arrive and it's the only incense im not allergic to lol

[childofthewinged]

taking a small break from any socials until dec 20! (it's exams week >~<) 💗 wish me luck aaaaa

[childofthewinged]

sigh. i sometimes feel a bit insecure worshipping apollo because he's the god of art and i am not a single bit artistic (cannot draw, can barely sing, can no longer write) but is it so wrong to love what i cannot do? to long for something that i so clearly desire?

[childofthewinged]

news update: it was not a phase, i can breathe easy now

another news update: thank gods i finished senior year 🥳

(have not updated anything because i honestly forget i have tumblr)

[childofthewinged]

exams week is soooo dreadful but we finally got our profit from the class business 🥳 earned like $10 so i ran to the store to finally buy candles 💗 (also bought a bunch of bracelets and keychains from a fellow student, ill be offering those as thanks for guiding me in the exams)

[childofthewinged]

talking to them makes the weight on my back a bit lighter 💗