Night #540 & #541
Yesterday was okay. I went to work, 11-6, and it was an okay shift. Nothing major. It’s kinda flew by actually.
After that, I was helping my uncle DJ at a party. There were a few people I knew at that party too and it was a good night. I only got in at 3 and had work the next morning, hence why I didn’t post.
I’d been talking to Paige too for a bit today. Partially in real life, partially on Snapchat. Here’s the thing, I’m too shy to be flirty in person, so I just make a fool of myself and make people laugh at how stupid I am (well, appear). But then on text I get a bit flirtier. However, when she’s obviously unclear on my age because no one believes that I’m only 16 at work and I don’t know if anyone’s told her I’m only 16, she didn’t take well to it. In fact, she’s been ignoring me on Snapchat. However she’ll still talk to me at work. She even started the conversation today. I don’t know, I’m just very confused. I can’t be assed trying too hard.
Today was a bit crap. I was tired after last night. I wasn’t being the happy, smiley me at work. I was just being off today, I felt like everyone was picking on me, I felt the weight of the world on my shoulders. I nearly had a couple of breakdowns because I was just getting frustrated at everything. I was just getting stressed at the smallest things and I was being lazy. I was just tired and I didn’t have the energy to act out the ‘work’ character I usually play. I was just being the lazy, stubborn me that is me that people don’t recognise. Sean N told me that people had told him that I wasn’t ‘myself’ today and that I’d been off and he didn’t even believe them. I must have been doing well at acting.
I wrote more about how I probably shouldn’t act and it would attract better people but for some reason that bit didn’t get published.
I also mentioned how I like stretching.
Goodnight.
Again, I hope this post has been alright. They don’t all have to be massive. And hopefully no one that I know will see this. Thanks for reading. If you have any questions, feel free to message me and ask or if you just want to chat, my dm’s are open. I can also answer personal questions if you need someone. I’m no trained professional but I’ve seen a lot and love helping people. Yeah, I copy and paste that everyday; doesn't make it any less true.