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5. SAY MY NAME AGAIN

(Lyrics below

[LEADER POV]

[Verse 1]

Say my name again before it fades,

Before the fire eats the man you knew.

I feel it rising, ice beneath the blaze—

A war inside my bones I cannot soothe.

Say my name again before I turn,

Before the silence takes my voice away.

I reach for you in dreams that twist and burn,

But dawn devours the words I meant to say.

[Chorus]

Say my name again. Say it like before.

When stars were stars and you could calm the storm.

Hold me with your voice — no sword, no flame.

If I am yours… then say my name again.

[Verse 2]

I walked too far beyond the reach of prayer,

The roots went deep, and whispered in my blood.

Their hunger wore me like a second layer,

And fed on every oath we’d ever loved.

Say my name again — perhaps I’ll hear.

Perhaps that sound will split the dark in me.

But all I see are faces gripped by fear…

And not the one who swore they’d always see.

[Chorus]

Say my name again. Say it through the dread.

Say it while there’s still a line to tread.

Call the boy you knew out from the flame.

If he still breathes… then say my name again.

[Bridge]

You said I’d never lose myself to power,

You said I’d never let the darkness win.

But love decays when crushed by hour on hour,

And I’m not sure which side I’m truly in.

[Verse 3]

Say my name again — I dare you now.

Can you still love the thing that wears my face?

My hands bring death. The world has made its bow.

And all I feel is heat where once was grace.

[Final Chorus]

Don’t say my name again. That name is dust.

You gave me love. I chose the fire. I must.

I wear the storm, the ruin, not the man.

But still I hear… the voice that says: “I can.”

[Outro]

If ever once you loved the one I’ve been…

Say my name again.

Say my name… again.

[doriansbutt]

hi remember when I said I wanna make a pixel video game and that I’d been working on music for one while totally not procrastinating learning how to make a video game

here’s some music that I had fun making, but just won’t fit the themes and vibes of the game! it gets to exist on its own!

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what happens when you ask your musician friends/band you’re in to just do whatever they want with covering songs they’ve already performed? they go harder, I guess. Except one person who decided: fuck it, dubstep 🤣

anyway for Valentine’s Day I’ve got RUIN: Redux—now more intense! Also a bonus shhhhh

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Hey, do you like tragedies? Do you like a loyal knight/doomed leader dynamic? Do you like gay fantasy love stories told through song? Well, you should totally give RUIN a listen :) you can find it almost anywhere you get music! Provided Spotify, and iTunes for easy listening :) but it’s also other places!

This was a joint effort between myself (nightchandac) as composer and lyricist and the music collective BONZII as singers who all did an amazing job with the songs they were assigned bringing these characters to life! I’ll link BONZII below as well! They have a really fun concept and make really fun stuff!!

Ruin by nightchandac https://music.apple.com/us/album/ruin/1820396861

Ruin by nightchandac on Apple Music

Album · 2025 · 9 Songs

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7. HOLD ME LIKE A WEAPON

(Lyrics below)

[Verse 1 – Protector]

Hold me like a weapon, not a friend,

Touch me just to see how far I bend.

You speak in silence, kiss like war,

Leave bruises I still ask you for.

[Verse 2-Leader]

You smile with blood upon your teeth,

But I still crave the heat beneath.

Is this love or is it grief?

Does it matter when you never leave?

[Chorus]

[Both] Hold me like a weapon, sharp and true,

[Leader] I’ll break the world, but not break you.

Love me wrong and love me deep,

I’ll guard the dark you choose to keep.

And bleed in rhythm when you breathe.

[Verse 3 –Protector]

I never thought I’d beg for pain,

But every hit still says your name.

And if you turn your wrath on me,

It means you still remember we.

[Verse 4 – Leader]

You always knew I’d burn too bright,

And held me anyway each night.

If love survives what we became—

Would you still stand, and take the blame?

[Chorus – Both]

[Both] Hold me like a weapon, like a sin,

[Leader] Like the war I hold within.

[Protector] If this is how the story ends—

Then strike me where your faith still bends.

And I’ll be yours until the end.

[Outro – Together]

[Both] We were forged, and we were flawed.

Cut by love, and blessed by gods.

If I must fall—

Then let it be

At your command.

Still yours. Still me.

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Safe to say RUIN was my top performer this year 🤣 also not sure if “When the Fire Took Him” could be called a “party starter” but okay 🤣

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8. ASHES

(Lyrics below)

[Verse 1]

PROTECTOR:

You said the fire would burn just bright enough

You said we’d rise, we’d be strong, we’d be tough

But I watched the city fall like a dying flame

And the ash that’s left? It still knows my name

I followed you through the darkest road

Believed in a dream that cracked and corroded

The blood on the stone, it’s fresh and mine

What did we win when we crossed that line?

[Verse 2]

LEADER:

We struck the bell, we broke the gate

We raced the storm and dared the fates

But every cheer was drowned by screams

What’s a throne worth if it haunts your dreams?

I’d fight again if you asked me to

But not like this — not losing you

We lit the torch, but it burned too fast

What do we carry now, but the past?

[Chorus]

BOTH:

Ash in my hands, dust on my face

The crown I wear has a bitter taste

We won the war but we lost the flame

The ones we loved, they’re not the same

Ash in my hands, air in my chest

Is this the curse of giving our best?

But even in silence, even in pain...

The sun can still shine through the rain

[Verse 3]

PROTECTOR:

I saw your shadow in every fire

Heard your voice like a funeral choir

And every face that I let down

Still walks beside me through this town

LEADER:

You told the truth that no one heard

You carved your justice into words

But truth alone can’t make things right

It’s love that stays and haunts the night

[Verse 4]

PROTECTOR:

If there’s a road that leads away

From all we lost, from all we gave

I’ll walk it slow, I’ll walk it true

If that road somehow leads back to you

We can’t erase the ash and smoke

But hearts rebuild where lines were broke

And I still believe in broken things

In fallen stars and shattered kings

[Second Chorus]

BOTH:

Ash in my hands, gold in the grief

Buried beneath a world of belief

We made a mess, but we made it bold

The kind of tale that’s always retold

Ash in my hands, wounds in my soul

But look at us, still not letting go

Maybe the end is just where it bends...

Love finds a way

Love finds a way

[Bridge]

PROTECTOR (solo):

I hear your voice in the crack of dawn

Singing hope in a world long gone

If I could rewrite what we became

Would I still bear this name?

[Final Chorus]

Ash in my hands, truth in my scars

We reached for gods, but we fell through stars

We wrote our names in the fire's glow

But lost who we were long ago

Ash in my hands, still I will stay

To guide the lost through the fray

And maybe tomorrow, maybe one day...

Love finds a way

Love finds a way

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4. CINDERLIGHT

(Lyrics below)

[PROTECTOR POV]

[Verse 1]

I saw your face in the flame again,

A flicker caught in yesterday’s wind.

You stood like a ghost in the orange glow,

Still wearing the name I used to know.

[Verse 2]

The ashes whispered secrets I forgot,

Your voice — a shadow the fire fought.

I reached through smoke, I burned for truth,

But all that’s left is the shape of youth.

[Chorus]

Cinderlight, don’t fade so fast,

You’re the last thing that I still grasp.

I’d give the smoke my final breath,

To see you before there’s nothing left.

[Verse 3]

Your hands were warmth, now they are storm,

You’ve shed your name, you’ve changed your form.

But even now, I swear I see

A heartbeat buried underneath.

[Chorus]

Cinderlight, don’t fade so fast,

You’re the last thing that I still grasp.

I’d give the smoke my final breath,

To see you before there’s nothing left.