#nightrant

[honestlyhaikyuutrash]

imagine i change my username from HonestlyHaikyuuTrash to HonestlyThirstinAfterBokuto’sdicc-

[ellellusion]

You turned into something you said you'd never be.. a stranger.

[dafritzzzz-blog]

A call to Action

It occurred to me that I am not posting anything on my Tumblr which defeats the purpose of trying to get back to blogging. I asked myself just now the question - why am I so lazy to post? As it turns out I am not lazy to post, I am however so enshrined on the idea of making a post so amazing that everyone would want to check it out, that mentality however has lead me to be “stuck in the mud” so to speak on my Tumblr posts. 

In light of such realization, I have decided to post (or most eagerly try) one writing every night- yes thats right ladies and gents - its every night! because Im letting go of my ideal - plan-the-heck-out type of self, I am now gearing towards more action. I will now favor action over the magical thinking type of approach. So, even if its just one tiny paragraph, I would post before I sleep to get my creativity juices flowing back again. Imagine if I post every night, thats 30 posts a month - wow! concrete accomplishments for me! 

To end this small tale, I am reminded of a line from a rap song by Macklemore  entitled Ten thousand hours, which goes :

“The greats weren't greats because at birth they could paint, the greats were great because they paint a lot “

Now isn't that an amazing line to ponder before going to sleep. 

[nurizzatieshahariman]

when are you getting married?

As we’re getting older, we often get these kind of questions “when are you getting married?” or “do you have boyfriend/girlfriend?”. I personally get those Qs a lot. Especially from my grandma or aunts. LOL. But honestly, I never felt stress or annoyed with those Qs. Since I was a kid, I always dreamt of getting married to a Caucasians. So whenever they asked me those Qs, I will jokingly replied something like this “I’m waiting for a Caucasians fell from the sky”. Hehehe... And they were like “Along, please be serious.” Hahaha. When I started working, I didn't have time to go back to my grandma’s house. So they didn't get the chance to ask me those Qs anymore. Luckily for me, my parents are not the type who keep asking me those kind of Qs. Maybe that’s the reason why I don't get annoyed or stress easily whenever people asked me those Qs. That’s why I don't understand those people who easily get stress or annoyed with those Qs and they replied in a sarcastic manners. For me it is very rude of them to be sarcastic to the elders. I think the elders were asking with good intention so why do they have to reply sarcastically? You get what I mean? They even make a joke or parody on internet how they replied to those Qs. What if their grandmas or aunts read or see those kind of joke? I think the best way is just to answer honestly and asking for their prayer/du’a. InshaAllah we will get rewarded and blessed by Allah in any way for not being rude to the elders. 

[purplepandapringle-blog]

Rambling Night 🌙⏰💤💤

So karma is a first class bitch. Everytime I decide I'm going to do something and .000001% fuck up, karma changes coarse and does something else.

Since this happens so much when it comes to my love life and dating, I'm starting to wonder what I did in my past life. Just how bad did I fuck up to be forever alone? 😱👆😂

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[ellellusion]

This is just one of those nights when you just want to abandon your life, all the people you know and for them to forget you too. i just want to start over somewhere new

[fhnsty]

This girl is totally my spirit animal. I could totally understand her frustration and I feel like I’m gonna hug her (well more like attempting to hug my laptop screen).

Okay, so I wasn’t really into putting extra attention on my make-up products before because my face skin was/is so irritating because it’s oily and also super sensitive. So my first step was to find a non-medical products (because skin doctor is getting more expensive and it seems like my skin is not getting more adaptable with both Jakarta’s humidity and prescription products). That said, basically my skin sucks. Then I found that Kiehl’s blue herbal series work fine on me -- meaning that it doesn’t cause any skin rashes on me and it helps my skin to calm down a bit. So I’ve been sticking with it for almost a year now. 

As the more time spent on being aware of animal rights, I started to want to move on into more cruelty-free, vegan products. Because, why would you want to put on any products that had been tested on animals beforehand? it doesn’t make sense. I feel like humans are so getting worse that even to make more money we have to make suffering on innocent creatures first. It’s just crap. Also, apparently China is a sick sick sicko country that it has law in which imported products must be tested on animals first before the country could give the product a go on selling it. I mean, WHAT THE FUCK? 

So I went looking for more information about non-cruelty  free products, and I was shocked (even though I kinda have predicted it) that mostly known drugstore and high-end products are not cruelty free. Either because they basically jump in to animal-testing practise or because their parent company does it or because they sell it in China. Thanks to the video I think I would stop buying products from Maybelline, NYX and Rimmel from now on and start moving on to the cruelty-free ones. The only thing that bugs me still is that my skincare routine from Kiehl’s, which I still depend on a lot, but the fact that L’oreal is the parent company of Kiehl’s makes me want to puke. You know, L’oreal is a big company that goes for animal-testing and it keeps buying company that used to be cruelty-free like Urban Decay and The Body Shop and then turning them into the not-so-cruelty-free ones. This company is like a puss that transmits its bacteria everywhere possible because it doesn’t want to be alone. Very disgusting. Well, I guess I could only hope that I would find the alternative for my skin care very soon.

[katielorren]

4.20.16

It’s only fucking Wednesday and I’ve cried every single damn day this week. About the same fucking thing. Over and over and over again. Sunday I cried to my sister about it. Monday I cried to my school counselors about it. Tuesday I cried myself to sleep about it. And today I cried to my mom about it after picking up fucking Thai food. THAI FOOD, I LOVE THAI FOOD AND THINKING/TALKING ABOUT WHERE THE HELL IM GOING TO COLLEGE RUINED IT AND MADE ME CRY. Type of shit is this. Why is it that the so called “best years of my life” is me just constantly worrying and the future? Everyone is telling me that I'm "lucky to have this problem" what does that even mean??? Im lucky that I'm constantly anxious about where I'm going to actually start my life??? doing what I need for my career??? Where I'm going to discover who I am??? WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEANNNNN. Why am I even ranting on here... Goodness.