When nesta is a mother, what is her favorite and least favorite things about motherhood?
nesta’s favorite thing about motherhood is the unconditional love that comes from having a baby. knowing that her baby will always love her even if she screws up or isn’t perfect. coming into this world her baby knows nothing of the things she has done, there’s no judgment, no worry of having to be a certain way to get approval. there’s just pure love and the knowledge that her baby sees her and needs her as only her mother. and nesta has nothing but unconditional love when it comes to her children, she’ll never judge them or put pressure on them, never will she force them to be a certain way. she will be the complete opposite of her mother and will make sure every one of her children feels loved all the time, that they each know she’ll be there for them no matter what. even if the world seems against them they’ll always know their mother is on their side. nesta shows her love in countless ways, but reading especially. she’ll be reading to them before they’re even out of her womb because babies can hear your voice the most prominently and it becomes a nightly routine.
i have this headcanon in my head that she asks the house if it can somehow give her the book of fairy tales she used to read constantly as a child and it’s able to and it’s that book specifically that she reads to her children all the time. along with human books and fae books she tells them her own stories, whether they are made up or real ones about her and cassian, her and her sisters, or her and the valkyries. as her kids get older she incorporates them into the stories and they absolutely love it. she loves curling up with them, snuggling together, and spending that time together. she makes sure she does it every night and afterwards she always gives them a kiss goodnight, says ‘i love you,’ and tucks them in.
her least favorite thing about motherhood is having to let them go at some point. there will come a time when they’re older and don’t need her as much, they’ll want to be independent, go on their own adventures and create their own stories. the realization that she cannot protect her children forever dawns on her as she gets closer and closer to the birth date. when she’s pregnant they’re safe from the world and its horrors. she’s witnessed firsthand some of prythian’s most vicious creatures. knowing what lurks in their world and the likelihood of them encountering some of those creatures later in life gives her some anxiety. especially with the stories cassian tells her about his younger years and the horrors he’s faced. plus, knowing how casual and reckless cassian can be when it comes to dealing with a dangerous situation, she knows at least one of their daughters will end up inheriting that trait from their dad.
i imagine her being very protective of her children, especially when they’re young. if, for whatever reason, they had to go to illyria and had to bring their child she would either be constantly holding her child or her child would be behind her leg with nesta’s hand always on them. if anyone dares says anything about her child she’’ll give them a look that promises to burn them to ash. honestly, she wouldn’t like any of her daughters in illyria knowing how they treat females there and knowing what they do to their wings.