#nihongochick2

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Selfie dump!

Yay for vanity!

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I want to be that person

I recently decided I want to be rich. NOT FAMOUS.

I want to be so rich that I can live in a high rise luxurious apartment, with an ocean view and two orange haired cats, one Rottweiler and a Doberman.

I want to be so rich that I can send people to take my place at social events. So rich that I can shower people with money, and fund people to help fix and maintain out environment and infrastructure.

I want to be so rich that people call me a bitch to my face. That’s how rich I want to be. I want to be so rich and not stress if I can pay my bills, and do what I want to do.

I want to be so rich men beg me to marry them, while I walk past and hand over a check to a low income public school to buy new materials and financially maintain an art and music department.

I want to be so rich that people don’t know who I am. I can walk down the street and people seriously ignore me, but I know who I am.

I want banks to be super excited to see my name. I want major companies to be knocking on my door. I want politicians to brag that they didn’t ask for my money. But I still get emails from them.

I want to be rich enough to sit at home with my animal family, sipping on my favorite coffee, listening to music while watching the sunset and not worry where my next pay check is coming from.

I want to be so rich, that my Doberman had been trained for military and police security defense and understands Japanese.

I want to be so rich, that I think $10,000 is chump change. While donating $50,000 as a minimum amount to start a company that I believe will do good for the future.

I want to be so rich that other rich people think we’re friends. Ha! I don’t know you.

I want to be so rich, that my closet has the latest fashion trends and my kitchen as the sleekest coolest gadgets. But I still use a drip coffee machine that the only button on it is the on and off switch. While wearing a pair of jeans with holes that I bought in 2012, and band tee-shirt I had to buy on sale.

I want to be so rich that international billionaires invite me on their yachts. As I send them a “Raincheck” notice.

I want to be so rich that celebs need to be introduced to me. While I watch their faces contort and eyes squirming that someone like me could be so rich. While offended that they have to request to talk to me.

I want to be so rich that I not only own a luxurious condo/apartment, but a house with a large piece of land for my family to go to for vacation whenever they want.

So rich that I have a different car for each day of the week.

I want to be so rich that paying my full taxes doesn’t give me anxiety and I demand a tax report of how much I paid to the country while demanding that my money is spent on as many low income communities and schools.

I want to be so rich that I can actually think, “I should go the doctor’s office.” When I feel ill. Or I am not afraid of the hospital bill if I am seriously injured.

I want to be so rich that people know my name, but can’t put a face to it.

I want to be so rich that my Doberman is my last line of security defense. I have the strongest and highest quality security both for my furry babies and home.

So rich that I could buy an island, but I decide to invest in stocks, for fun. Ashton Kutcher is one of my many investment advisors.

I am so rich that I have my own private plane to take me anywhere my heart desires. Staying at the most expensive hotels and luxurious resorts, that have private beaches or estates.

I want to be so rich that the Trumps insist that I am their closest dearest friend. While I say, “who said what?”

So rich that I can support my expensive lifestyle, my family, and my community.

I know I could say I want to be financially comfortable, but I want to help my family, friends, and my community. I want to give back because I know what it means to struggle and know that I can’t do something simple because of money issues.

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If you’re wondering

Blood family is good to remind you how “bad” you are.

Biological family is important for us to grow into better people.

I was reminded once again that I’m too difficult to love and live with that I’ll die alone. Not even given a chance to be the crazy “cat-lady”.

I’m simply going to die alone.

Good to know my family still supports and have high hopes for me.

[nihongochick2]

Life motto

I’m White, I’m Nerdy, and I’m down to get dirty!

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Yeah, I'm awkward as fuck. To this day, at the age of 25, I still can't get a boyfriend. At this age I see myself sitting at home wallowing in self pity because why not!? I'm a 25 year old virgin who still acts 16 years old. I tried saying it today. I was talking about romance and relationships, and the things I wanted. In my head I knew what I wanted to say, but the words refused to come out, purely from the feeling of pride. I felt weak and stupid for even thinking it. I felt stupid telling myself what I want. Yesterday, I had a really good time. And for the first time, it felt great talking to someone who just understands you. Laughs at the same stupid pot jokes, and has the same rhythm that I grew up with. I really enjoyed talking to him, and if anything, I hope we can stay friends. Just sitting and talking shit. For the first time I was smiling on the way home while thinking about our conversation. I work with people who are understanding and cool. Some maybe not, but most are just really awesome. They make my days less painful. Breaks are spent talking, and laughing. Work is less depressing than it started out as. I know what I want, but I'm scared and too proud to say it. Afraid that if I say it, someone will just remind me the reality. If I say it, I am just confessing my weakness. A part of me is stopping me from saying it because once I admit what I want, I will fall into disappointment and depression once more. I'm terrified, but I'm also lonely. I hate where I stand and I need to step forward. I need to be brave. What I want is a boyfriend. I want a relationship. Never had one before and this is what I want. I've never been a real date before, and never really kissed a boy. I want to try. I want a boyfriend. As I write this, my face radiates heat and changing shades of red. I should say I behave like a fucking 13 year old. How stupid must I be to behave this way? Growing up fat, redheaded and hated by almost everyone, I am afraid. I get flustered when people call my beautiful. I don't know what to say, and I just walk away. I grew up with people seriously throwing half eaten food at me. I watched kids laugh at me, and stare while I just sat quietly. I have an attitude because of all of this. I have issues because my sisters helped me become like this. I fear that all guys hate me, and that the only reason they talk to me is because I'm not a threat, or their type. I want a boyfriend, and no, I don't know what to do next. I shall sit here trying to figure out what my next step is. Until then, I shall fidget and twirl my thumbs, play with my hair and pray that 2 years go by fast.

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I'm stressing out so much. I'm stressing over Christmas with my family, and I'm dreading it. Mostly having to see my brother and his crew. I just don't want to do it. I'm fine with what, one day? That's fine. But a whole week? 😖 It's not that I don't love my brother, but my brother and sister are so one-sided that it's hard to talk to them sometimes. Here are some topics of what NOT to talk to my older sister and brother about: MONEY Anti-gun laws Money My generation Money Politics Wanting stricter gun laws Money How much I spend on stuff and that I'm freeloading off my Dad. What we end up talking about: Money Politics And apparently my generation and how I'm the one who fucked everything up. Now, you see into my family life.

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ALICE NINE SALE COMING SOON!!!!!!

Hello! I plan on having another A9 GOODS Sale! As soon as I have time to go through my apartment and stuff, since I'm moving, I'll post on my livejournal Tumblr Twitter Google+ accounts for you all to see. I plan on selling CD's Photobooks Magazines Fliers Uchiwas(fans) And tour goods that I don't need (人●´ω｀●) Look forward to that by December 7th

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nihongochick2 said: Back when saga actually didn’t care for Soccer haha but yes! Remember this Jealkb was my first VK band lol

YES! xD!! Ohhhh the irony. That's actually why I'd like to see Alice Nine play another match? xD - Now we have a soccer enthusiast and the Demon King. Should be very interesting. xD

candycarrousel said: YES YES YES THAT WAS SO CUTE ♡♡♡

HOMG IKR?! Wasn't it?! So cute and sooo funny. x3 Ugh I cannot get enough of it tbh! One of my favorite moments. :3