You've probably already figured out exactly what I'm about to say simply from the above address. But I'll continue anyways.
I believe the time has come for me to set the Casperan Family aside. Whether forever or just temporarily, I'm not sure yet. But for the past month or so now, I've been recognizing some signs that indicate I need to let this project go. I was extremely upset to come to this realization, as there is so much more I wanted to do with these characters and this story, and I hate the idea of letting all of you guys down. But in spite of starting the Big Fic all the way back in March, the outline is barely three pages long now, and no matter what I do to it, something about the story feels off to me. As though I'm not supposed to be working on that right now.
Meanwhile, The Final Becoming, an absolute behemoth of a fic (for someone like me, at least) the likes of which I never thought I could possibly produce, was fully completed within the span of four months, starting in July. I can't really explain it here, but when I was writing that story, I felt that it was something I was meant to do. Kinda stupid, I know, but I never could shake that feeling. It's one that has accompanied the creative process for each of my stories to some extent, and it's a feeling that is always noticeably absent for projects that I am never able to complete.
As much as it pains me to say, that feeling has been absent from the Casperan Family project. For whatever reason, I'm getting this sense that there's somewhere else I need to be, another project that needs my attention, though I don't know what it is yet. Maybe the project is simply letting myself lie fallow for a bit and recover from TFB, haha. Whatever is going on, all I know is I don't want the Casperan Family to become a project that I loathe. I don't want to drive myself to frustration with it, because I have loved this silly little idea and my silly little OCs and all of you beautiful followers so, so much.
Between this feeling, which really started months ago and has only intensified as time wore on, and the fact that the ToA fandom is much smaller and quieter than it used to be, I have come to the much-dreaded decision that it's time to put this blog up on the shelf. I'll still be hanging around the fandom with my main blog, and this one isn't going to be outright deleted, but asks will be closing here soon. I would like to hope that I might come back to this one in a few years, that maybe there will be a time when I can finish this, but I really have no idea.
For now, I just want to say thank you. Thank you @poetryinmotion-author and @dreamsarelikedragonflies for developing this idea with me. Thank you EldritchQueen over on Ao3 for being my most enthusiastic Non. Thank you Teny for being my first and most unexpected follower. And thank you to everyone else who has taken the time to share in this silly little concept of mine. My experience with this blog was so wildly fun and unexpected, and all of you really helped get me through a pretty rough year. So again, thank you. And I hope our paths cross again.
Fairy blessings for you all,
