Someone I knew committed suicide recently. That same night I was talking to another friend on a bridge wanting to do the same.... . Last night I dreamed the government was trying to give me a lobotomy. It's all inspired me. I'm sick of life too. NO, I'd never follow them but truly understand their struggles. These events have motivated me, I am ready to change the world, starting with my own world. . It's easy to change the world, just save one person, change one thing to positive and you've created that ripple in this pond. Start with yourself, tell one person you love them. Do one good deed and see how easy it is to hack this holographic universe. . I've been in retirement too long but Friday the 13th is always magical for me. So expect change because I'm ready to create it starting, now! . . . .. .......If you do want to see my personal version of suicide, here is a link to a film I made featuring a collection of own music videos, fashion films & spoken word films that I call "Suicide Art" . This is not to make light in any way of the tragedy of the auctal act. It's truly a horrific thing and this personal film is how I fought against it & beat a demon in my life I faced by channeling it into my art. https://youtu.be/_aRx2mfMEi8 . #nikpix #nikstamps #nik_pix #photo #photographer #art #Philadelphia #Roxborough #filmmaker #artist #Manayunk #director #business #niknyk_show #Philly #photography #model #photooftheday #mnyk #followme #instagood #fashion #picoftheday #like4like #like4follow #follow4follow #instadaily #Niknyk #215shooters (at Philadelphia, Pennsylvania)