i'm very grateful for the kindness in this life. what a gift it is to be able to smile and say no, maybe another time to the universe. i miss him dearly and i will always love him, like i was born to so many eons ago, but it was thanks to his choice that i was afforded the option of choosing for myself. i met some sourcemates of mine recently and i am so grateful for the chance to befriend them normally, to be able to stand still with them, take in the vastness that is life and breathe it in, knowing we are promised a tomorrow. i am relieved that i am not alone in this strange world, but i weep with joy at the knowledge that i can stand on my own now. i haven't found him yet; perhaps i never will, but i am satisfied all the same. loving him shaped the fabric of my being, but as time and life move, so too do people, and i have learned that i will be okay if my heart moves on with them.
i am too nervous to say your name, but if you're reading this, i have a feeling you'll know it was meant for you to find. i hope that you've found happiness. thank you for setting me free.
(fictionkin; i hope it's alright for source & kintype to remain anonymous)