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Chappell Roan by Noah Kim (@_sonagee on Instagram).

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Lights Out

Chapter 6

Hazel’s P.O.V

I glanced down at my dress and watched the fabric soak up the liquid. Sapphire instantly searched for my face, as did woojae. I sighed as i looked back up at junwon. He had his hands in his pockets, looking off to the side and lightly bopping his head to the music. I glanced over at sapphire, whose attention was now on woojae. She was clearly upset. She waved her finger in his face and he grabbed her hand, lacing their fingers in a way that calmed her down almost completely. 

I stood up from the staircase and made a beeline for the bathroom. Pushing through the crowd of half drunk humans, I kept my composure as best as I could. I wanted to cry so badly.

As I slammed the bathroom door behind me, I closed my eyes.

Why would he be here with someone else?

Just as I was about to let out the water works, there was a bang at the door. I slightly jumped and yanked the door back. “What!” I shouted, expecting it to be junwon. It wasn't. It was some drunk fool, who pushed right past me and threw up all over the toilet. I groaned and stomped my way back towards the crowd of people. 

Pushing against everyone, i made my way towards Woojae. Grabbing his shoulder, I turned his body around to face me. “Why would you let him bring another girl here!” I shouted over the music. Woojae quickly shook his head and put his hands up. “We just happened to arrive at the same time, Hazel. I’ve been trying to get in touch with him to tell him about the accident. I had no idea he was even coming to this party.”

I looked over towards sapphire. “How did he even know there was a party in the first place, Sapphire?” 

She placed her hands on her hips and cocked her head to the side. “I didn’t personally invite him. He probably saw the invitation that I posted.” 

I rolled my eyes and bumped her shoulder as I walked past her.

Junwon’s P.O.V

This wasn’t really my style. Parties were just too loud for me. I was only here cause someone sent a stupid invitation to Jay. he saw the word mansion and said we must attend. To be honest, I was still tired from all the partying we did the other night. All I really wanted to do was get away from this girl and go to sleep in my own bed. Jay really wanted to spend some time together since this was his last day in the states. He wanted me to see what kind of lifestyle I would have back in Korea. Only he said it was going to be ten times worse with the partying. 

“Damn, there’s hella people here.” Jay laughed. “Perfect opportunity to spread the word about your music to gain more exposure. What do you think?” he asked. I nodded my head and glanced around the room. He was right, there was a ton of people here, but i--

“Hazel?!” I shouted as I spotted a familiar figure throughout the crowd. I pulled my arm back from the girl who was attached to me. “Hey!” she whined. I waved her off and wiggled my way through the people. “Hazel!” I yelled out for her. She kept walking. 

“Yo!” someone pulled at my jacket and I turned around. “Woojae? what are you doing here?” i laughed.

“What the hell are you doing, bro?” He shouted over the music. 

“What do you mean? I just seen Hazel, where is she going?” I shouted back.

“She going crazy. You really thought bringing another chick here wouldn’t set her off?”

I furrowed my brows. “Wait, who’s party is this?” i asked. 

He ignored my question.

“You know everyone’s been trying to get ahold of you, right?”

I pulled out my phone. Something I hadn't looked at in days, and he was right. I had tons of missed calls from unsaved numbers.

“The girls didn’t miss your show on purpose. They got into a car accident.”

I glanced up at him. “A what?!” my breathing went short and I turned my attention back to finding Hazel, leaving woojae standing there.

Hazel’s P.O.V

Walking into Sapphire’s room, I reached for my clothes that sat on the bed and started to change out of her dress. As i lifted my arms to put on my shirt, this stupid pain in my back started to pinch at me. I winced and shut my eyes, instantly crying. Not only from the pain but, because this idiot brought a freakin girl to my bestfriend’s stupid party. 

“Hazel.” Sapphire said as she entered the room. “Don’t take your anger out on me. I didn’t invite the man.” she said closing the door. I breathed a laugh and proceed to get dressed, wiping my eyes. “I don't care, Sapphire. I really don’t. I’m going home.” I said wiggling into my pants. 

“Yes, you do care and no you’re not going home. You don’t have a ride back.” she said snatching my shoes up. “You really think that’s going to stop me from leaving. I will leave this house barefoot.” 

As I made my way to the door, Sapphire put her hand over the handle. “Just stop.” she whined. “This wasn’t supposed to happen. We were supposed to be celebrating being alive.” 

I sighed. “Yay. we’re still breathing. Now, move.” Pushing her hand away from the knob, I snatched the door open and there stood junwon with his fist in the air, like he was going to knock.

I groaned and slammed the door in his face. Sapphire stood there quiet for a moment. As she placed my shoes back on the ground, she pulled me into a tight hug. I started crying again, as I hugged her back.

Everyone knew deep down, i had feelings for junwon. Even when i was with Bryan.

Everyone knew. Everyone!

“Hazel, i just wanna talk..” Junwon said through the door softly. I said nothing.

I just stood there, in sapphire’s arms and cried for what seemed like forever.

“You should just let him explain himself. I know you wanna punch him in the throat, but do that after.” she said giggling a little. I pulled back from her hug and pushed my hair back. 

This night was just terrible. 

“I don't even wanna see his face, sapp.” I mumbled. “I wouldn’t either.” she replied. “But, at least he’s here. Not down there, with that hoe.” Sapphire shrugged. “Use this opportunity.”

Seconds later, sapphire disappeared. It was just junwon and i now. 

I kept my distance, standing over by the entrance to the bathroom. As he started to approach me, I lifted my hand and shook my head slowly. 

“Just- don’t..” I furrowed my brows as my lip started to quiver. “Don’t..” 

Junwon parted his lips and sighed. I could tell he didn't know where to start.

“Did you really get into a car accident?” he mumbled, searching my body for marks.

I breathe a laugh and crossed my arms. I couldn't bring myself to say a word. I was just going to scream and I knew that wouldn’t be good for the situation. Did he really think I would lie about something like that?

“Why do you care?” I spat out. Junwon blinked a few times then shook his head. 

“Hazel, why wouldn’t I care? You’re.. my best fucking friend...” 

Best fucking friend?

I looked off to the side, pretending not to hear those words. 

“Are you okay?” he said walking over to me. He took my hand and I immediately snatched it away. “I’m fine. Just- get out of my way.” I mumbled as I walked past him. Slipping on my shoes, I tied the laces carefully. 

“Please stop acting like this.” Junwon was becoming frustrated and I really didn't care. I rolled my eyes and headed towards the door, but he stood in front of me.

 “I thought you ditched me, okay? I thought you just completely forgot about me and went to kick it with Bryan instead.” He confessed. 

Hearing his name just pissed me off even more. 

“Bryan was the idiot who hit us.” I yelled angrily, pushing past him.

I stomped out of Sapphire’s room and was soon in the mix of the wild hyenas.

Pushing them aside, I made my way to the front door and yanked it open, stepping out into the cold night. I squinted my eyes, looking down the dark road- having second thoughts about leaving.

Leaving the door wide open, I could hear the party getting louder. Girls were screaming and shouting at the presents of someone. I turned back, looking at a big circle of people and flashing lights. I rolled my eyes at the scene and started walking down the road.

an hour later

This was my sanctuary. This was the place that i would go everyday after my father passed away. This place has seen many tears of mine.

I sat down on the bench, hugging my arms to get away from the cold. I looked out towards the waterfall and sighed. 

“What is happening, dad? I don’t understand.”

The next day

“What the hell..” I groaned. As I opened my eyes, the waterfall came back into my sight. The sun was warm against my skin and the wind was slightly blowing. 

Sitting up, I yelped. My back was on fire and it felt like someone was stabbing me over and over again.

My body became stiff as i tried to lift myself off the bench.

How the hell did I fall asleep out here?

Approaching my front door, I stared at the handle. My mom was going to flip. I bet she was worried sick about me.

“Hello?..” I called out as I opened the door. It was quiet. The silence could actually kill. 

“Zoe?”

Nothing.

Walking over to the kitchen, I glanced at the oven clock. 

10:42am

I lifted my brows and opened the pantry for some medicine. I popped two advils in the mouth and grabbed some water than made my way upstairs.

Opening my door, I saw a small box on my bed. Flipping it over, I examined the square and tilted my head. “The heck is this?”

Ripping the box open, i slightly gasped. It was a new phone. I shook my head and picked it up, searching the box for a name.

Nothing.

“HAZEL?!” I heard Zoey’s voice call out for me.

I ran over to the ponywall with the new phone in my hand. “Did you do this?” I said looking down at her, showing the phone. She smiled and lifted her arms, which i could barely see. They were covered in shopping bags.

“What the hell?” 

“I damaged Woojae’s pockets, not mine.” she confessed. Zoey skipped up the stairs, leaving the front door open.

“I was gone for 14 hours and your first thought was to go shopping?” I said disappointed. She shook her head. “No!” she shouted. “Look, we went looking for you. Even tried to file a missing person report, but they said we had to wait for 24 hours just in case you showed up.” she started. “We looked all night for you, staying up until 4am.” Zoe made her way to her room and I followed behind her. “So, you gave up and decided to go shopping?” I repeated. She huffed. “Sapphire and I were worried sick, okay? Woojae thought it would be a good distraction for us.” she smiled as she tried to hug me. I pushed her arms away.

“Are you not understanding how fucked up this is?” I questioned.

“HAZE?!?!?” Sapphire’s voice rang in my ears.

I rolled my eyes and made my way downstairs, folding my arms across my chest. “Are you guys serious right now?” I said annoyed as I looked down at her shopping bags. Woojae entered the house quickly after her and set down more bags.

“I’m so happy to see you!” I winced as she threw her arms around me. “OUCH!” I screamed. Sapphire pulled back quickly and furrowed her brows. “What’s wrong?” she shouted. 

I paused for a minute.

“Your.. ring..” I lied. “It got stuck in my hair..” as the words left my mouth, I felt slightly out of breath from holding in the pain. She glanced down at her hand and lifted her brows. “I'm sorry..” 

Woojae cleared his throat.

“I see you like your present.” he said nodding towards the iPhone. “I didn’t know which color to get, but I heard that your favorite color is pink.” he laughed as he looked over at Sapphire. 

“This came from you?!” my eyes instantly got bigger. Woojae nodded. “I can’t accept this. Here.” I said handing him the phone back. Sapphire pushed my hand away. “Take it, Haze.” her expression was firm. “I don't want it.” I mumbled to her. “I didn’t ask if you wanted it. You need it.” 

I could tell Sapphire was upset. She picked up a few shopping bags and set it on the couch then approached Woojae, taking his hand.

“Woojae was nice enough to buy you a phone and you should use it. You clearly need some time to get yourself together, Hazel. You’ve been very weird and slightly rude for the past couple days and that's not you. When you find my bestfriend, call me.” Sapphire tugged at Woojae’s hand, signaling him that it was time to leave. He sighed and flashed a weak smile.

“I’m glad you’re okay, Hazel. Get some rest..”

As the door shut behind them, I stared at it. 

“She’s right, you know?” Zoey said from the balcony. “Woojae was actually really worried. He’s the one who made the report for us.” she mumbled.

“Who’s side are you on, Zoe?” I said quietly. 

“I’m not picking sides. You’re my sister and I love you, but Sapphire is right.” she said sighing and going into her room.

[suburbiagossip]

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How long has Leah lived in Evanston?

Both Leah and Noah were born in Evanston, so like forever.

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NOAH KIM

age: 95 liner company: spotlight entertainment position: juno’s lead rapper/lead dancer/vocalist traits: (+) Outgoing, talented, empathetic (-) Self-loathing, impulsive, addictive played by: rose

About: tw: minor drug abuse, references to violence (fighting)

Noah was the first child in his family to be born in the United States and not South Korea. He was born on December 21st, 1995, in Atlanta, Georgia, to two recent Korean immigrants. His family both in the States and back in Korea struggled financially, and as a child Noah could not avoid the feeling that he was partially responsible for their fate–but that didn’t stop him from making their situation worse and worse.

First it was his grades, then it was the fact that he was barely showing up for school–when he did, he rarely went without getting into trouble when he was there. It wasn’t as if Noah had fallen in with the wrong crowd, but more so that he was the wrong crowd, and everyone else seemed to gather around him. Noah already had a minor criminal record in Atlanta by the time was sixteen just from the amount of times he had shown up to school drunk or gotten into fights rather than going to school at all.

When he was seventeen, Noah’s mother suggested that it’d be best to send him to Korea. Though he’d never been there before, he spoke the language and she had no other ideas on how to shake some sense into her son. His grades were horrible and it didn’t seem like any more times he was dragged home after being called into the principal’s office or caught for truancy or a fight was going to change that.

Noah didn’t really have that many talents, but his cousins’ and siblings’ knew how much he loved music and saw him rapping–even jokingly–with his friends at and outside of school. With their encouragement, Noah’s mother made him record in an audition video of him rapping, although he did not put much weight in the possible outcome. He wasn’t cut out to be an idol back in Korea, he couldn’t sing or dance in sync with a million other boys who started training when they were children. But to his surprise, and his mother’s relief, Spotlight offered to sign him as a trainee soon afterwards.

Unfortunately, Noah’s pattern of behavior followed him to Seoul. And while his standing with Spotlight improved in spite of this thanks to his rapping, his drug use and drinking only got worse. What had been casually getting high whenever he got bored in Atlanta became more and more frequent until he got in the habit of not being able to go more than a day or two without being some amount of fucked up. He knew that he wasn’t like himself was he was like that, but that was part of the incentive whether he wanted to admit it or not; he didn’t like himself, no matter what he did to change that.

A year into his training, Spotlight suggested that Noah audition for the third season of Show Me The Money. At the time, the show was nowhere near as popular as it is today, but that current success is now often attributed to Noah’s participation on the show. While he was one the fence about competing on the show while continuing to train, the prize money awarded to the winner proved to be the final incentive. Until Noah debuted, he knew that he had little opportunity to provide for his family who he left behind in Atlanta. If he won, he would be able to send that money back to his family and maybe start making amends for his behavior before.

Though it proved to be very difficult for Noah to continue training at Spotlight with the same level of dedication he normally had while competing in Show Me The Money, he thankfully finished the show in first place. Despite only being a teenager with little performance experience in Korea under his belt, Noah continuously beat out seasoned rappers, many of whom were nearly twice his age. The other rappers on the show saw more of Noah than Spotlight ever did when he went out with them, but Spotlight only seemed to focus on how he won.

Noah’s debut with Juno came as a surprise to more people than Spotlight probably would have liked years after his Show Me The Money win, but he was partially relieved that he didn’t completely stick out from the rest of the group on any of their songs or stages. While this cockiness is apparent onstage, offstage he can be surprisingly much sweeter and more caring than most people would expect unless he’s caught in a bad mood.

Noah used to feel guilty that him being part of Juno was a slight distraction from their debut, but two years later, now he just worries that it’s too late for him to become any better of a person. Even if he’s not content with being a part of Juno, the other members deserve a groupmate better than that, his mother deserves a better son than that, and the list just goes on and on. If some of Spotlight’s staff has caught on to how much of a mess he is, they tend to turn the other cheek and focus on dealing with the scandals that the public have already found out about–but that doesn’t seem to be helping him or making it harder for him to make any changes in himself either way.

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me: already obsessed with noah kim bye

me: definitely obsessed with noah kim as well. i’m enjoying him while i can, though. it’s only a matter of time before one of you yuckies here corrupts him.