#noah transition

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Throwback to me being a happy camper in Germany this summer. Oh wow I miss it. Also I’m looking through these trying to find a photo to put on the bulletin board at work haha 

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just some personal notes to self n rants n stuff

finally ordered a new sports bra that isn’t some uber shitty one that my mom got me years and years ago which honestly does nothing unless it’s fresh out the dryer...so finally got a new one that’s actually good quality and hopefully that’ll do something more than the ones I have aka I’m sure it will for the days that I can’t or don’t want to bind bc that’s a hassle and a half

it’s been a few days since i’ve emailed mount sinai my questions about getting more information for top surgery and I’m waiting a bit longer before I consider trying to look into further options or to contact them via calling...I know emails take time so I’m giving it some more time to get a response for continuing that path 

I’m really really hoping for some good news with this bc obviously this is something that I need for so many reasons at this point honestly. my asthma is just not putting up with binding frequently (especially in the heat) but once it cools down I know I’ll be alright again and it’ll be okay especially if I can layer up when not binding too. On that note I really haven’t binded at all this summer aside from a day here and there it’s such a pain in the ass when it’s hot and just a hassle for me in general so 

Hopefully over the next couple months i’ll be able to talk to my mom about top surgery again bc it’s seriously needs to be considered to happen over the next year bc I feel like i’m missing out on so much too not to mention the whole it obviously is constricting and a hassle for it’s various reasons 

It’s been almost a month since i’ve switched to a generic version of androgel and it’s been honestly so great. In a way it’s like not even something I have to give a second thought about unlike injections once a week? And it’s honestly the best switch I’ve done n my acne wasn’t affected much by the switch either so life is pretty good when it comes to that 

And bonus I’m almost a year on t!!!!! And I’m almost 21 wtf....

Oh and the name thing is still up in the air who knows what’s gonna happen honestly...I mean my current one is just gonna get “bumped” so it’ll be a name and then noah as middle and keegan as my informal last name until I legally change everything n it’ll be like I have two middle names unless I do legally change my last name too which I might. Even if I don’t and I do the two middle names route I’ll still informally and for creative purposes use keegan as the last name. Working on that whole name thing it’s honestly just a matter of waiting on my mom to work it out with me and cooperate hah 

stream of conscious, 9.11.16

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So I did The Gender Tag again to see how things have changed in the last year or so...twas a fun time 

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things that need to happen this week: 

finish painting trim

get hair dye and dye my hair 

possibly cut hair too or at least in the coming weeks

do the photoshoot I’ve been planning / pick a day for it

get my fucking name sorted x3 cuz I need one

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feeling kinda sick n tired ... decides it’s the perfect time for some of this before I go to sleep early to sleep the sick feeling off 

5.28.16

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Nearly 8 months on T and I'm starting to get super hesitant with my shots. I just overthink and then wind up tensing right before I inject so then it hurts like a bitch. I'm sure this hesitation will pass in time but it's a little shit in the mean time. Anyway I'm getting my hairy like Chewbacca hence the great suited bandaid... 5.19.16 (a day late on my shot due to pharmacy not having any needles/syringes yesterday)

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My mom asked me today if I was generally alright and if I felt like I wasn't going to make it through my transition. She said that while she and my family are slow to come around that they'll get there eventually. She also said something about how she's been so caught up in what's happening with my brother she didn't even think about my own challenges and how I was coping with everything. Basically saying I seem to have good coping skills and am handling my business well. Along with saying if I thought I needed to talk to a therapist or her that I could and stuff like that. So yeah family update on how they're taking my coming out a little over a year since I've come out...

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Just realizing the potential of having lost all of my transition photos, videos, etc. Well shit...I really really hope not