I don't want them to ever grow up. I'm going to be a mess when Noah starts school. He will be away from me for so many hours, so many days a week. I won't have control over a lot of things he sees and hears and does. How am I going to handle that? I know it's a part of them growing up and parenting in general. I was just thinking that this is the easy part. I don't care how exhausted I am from being up all night with a teething baby. Or tired of Autumn nursing for the 1000th time today. Or frustrated from arguing with Noah about turning the video games off for the day. The things that stress me out now are so minuscule in the grand scheme of things. These tiny humans will be teenagers one day. The things I'll have to worry about then scares me shitless. I just want to raise good human beings, that's all. I just want them to make good choices. It's like, what if no matter how hard I try to protect them and make them productive members of society...they go down a other paths. Dangerous or harmful ones. I pray to God I will never have to deal with that but so many parents do. I can't even imagine. I just want these babies to stay babies forever.