About 10 months ago, my life changed for the better. They say that when you find the person you’re meant to be with for the rest of you’re life, you’ll know it. You’ll feel it. I never believed that. How could you be so sure so quickly? I thought there was no way you’d know that you’re meant to be with someone without being committed to them for years. After a month or two, I knew what we had would last a very long time, but soon after that I realized that this wasn’t going to be a one year, two year, or even three year affair. I knew that we had a lifetime ahead of us. I could sit here and talk about the way I feel when he kisses me, the butterflies I get. Or the ugly feeling I get in my chest when he’s away. All the superficial things. Or I could even talk about the fact that I not only love him, but his family as well. I’ve never been so close to another family apart from my own. I could even go into how we have the same moral values, same basic beliefs, same sides on important issues. Or how safe and comfortable I feel with him. How I can talk to him about some of my darkest thoughts, my intellectual ones, and my pointless silly ones. None of those things compare to how I’ve never been more “me” in my entire life. He’s helped me find my voice, taught me how to stand up for myself. He’s given me tougher skin. He’s taught me how to love myself a little more each day, and taught me how to grow up. He’s been there for me when I didn’t deserve it, driven two hours just to be with me in the emergency room, and put up with me when I’ve been the rudest, most horrible me I’ve ever been. The things we’ve been through throughout our relationship, the distance, the loss we’ve had, would easily break up the strongest of couples. But here we are, stronger than ever. I thank God constantly for the blessing he’s given me. He’s given me more than a boyfriend, or even more than a husband. He’s given me the greatest best friend I’ve ever had, and for that, I am more than eternally grateful. Isaac Matthew, I love you with everything that I have. I would do anything for you, any time of any day. I am nothing short of ecstatic thinking about the amazing future we have ahead of us.
