Sep 12, 2021
any perc plugs in SoCal? specifically san diego area and if theyre pressies pls lettem be fent 🥺
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any perc plugs in SoCal? specifically san diego area and if theyre pressies pls lettem be fent 🥺
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Uncertainty is the bane of my existence
I've learned this through personal experience and through NA...
It's odd, bc i can go all day without getting high (all day as in until like 3) IF the potential of getting high is still present for later.
For example, one day a while ago i was gonna pick up some xans, but not until like 6 or something...so i got excited, got ready to do essentially nothing, and waited. I was content and feeling happy about the idea. As soon as i found out that xans would NOT be happening, i lost it. Suddenly i was restless, unable to control my anger, i was convinced that unless i got high or drunk that night, i would end it.
As soon as i realized that, however, there was no other option but to commit the day as a failure and try again tomorrow, i felt more peace.
It's the ambiguity of "the possibility of getting high but not likely" that made me react that way the unknown. If i push harder maybe it'll happen. If i steal money it'll happen. If i find a different plug it'll happen.
Being an addicted person isn't about how much you use or what you use, but rather your reaction to drugs.
Fattie bo baddie.
I fucked up so bad and I can't go back. No amount of bad behavior will fix me. The drugs, sex, the quick fixes. Nothing fills the empty hole inside. I fucked up so bad and it won't get better. I put down the drugs but I keep the men. They do what they want and tell me I'm beautiful but I don't feel better. They finish and kiss me goodbye until next time. I fucked up so bad. I'm in recovery now but I still feel empty, caffeine and cigarettes after AA, confessing my sins in 1-12, I'm starting to get better. I fucked up so bad but I'm sorry. I fucked up so bad but I'm getting better. I fucked up so bad.
Active addiction vs 6 months clean
I miss getting high so bad, send help.