2022 – Just another heartbreak
Today is January 09, 2022 nine days from this new year and I spent most of my time watching Sex and the City – perks of being unemployed; in fact I already finished all season 6 of the series and 2 continuation movies. I don’t know if it is because of the show that I had a tearful moment earlier today. I feel so confuse that all I do is ask for questions that I am trying to answer myself -like Carrie Bradshaw one of the main character. Wondering if I will end up like those characters that are still single in their 30s, well at least they all have jobs and living their best life in a very fashionable city of New York. In my case, I am turning 29 years old this year, jobless, single and living in a boring and small town Mariveles -not even a city!
I had a fight or should I say I made a fight with my long time MU who is on another country. I cried. I know him and I know that his actions and words earlier are just his normal reactions to certain things but today I’m just a very sensitive gal who’s been obsessed with Mr. Big – Carrie’s leading man who I have been seeing a lot like Mr. MU. Older, mature and has commitment issues.
The weird thing is I cried not because I am pissed of him, I cried when I thought of my cheater ex-boyfriend who I know a very expert in making me laugh in a dramatic discussion or nonsense fights. When did I become this stupid? Thinking of the person who hurt me so much and broke my heart into pieces and still him. And here I am putting my stupidity in writing. Haven’t I moved on? Or am I just reminiscing?