#noleta

[froggish-demeanor]

Ugh, busy week, time to catch up on (I will try to get in my missed entries in today/tomorrow)

Merlinverse Musical March: Frogverses. Day 3.

Noleta.

(the Merlinverse people who do know Vasylverse already are aware who it is, but I'll sum it up for everyone who isn't aware: Noleta is an even-worse-case-scenario version of Kour. In its case: the ritual meant to destroy the soul that is Merlin and free Vasyl' via fire and smoke backfired, binding the soul even more to their body and fully turning it into a conscious, unwilling vessel for Merlin.)

The song I chose for it - falls under many categories, but I think I'll put it under "A song about their relationship with gods", in this case - Dura in particular. A sort of lyric-by-lyric explanation is below the cut.

Be aware: I do know the true context of the song and I respect it, however in the stated below - the lyrics are interpreted differently from their original meaning. Thus, be aware! 🫶🫒

!Angst!

You made me who I am

I read the books, held mama's hand

You told me I wasn't worthy

But God always has a plan

(Merlin having been created as it is by Dura, Noleta being "grateful for it". Vasyl' as the unworthy one as they are not from Esperia nor willing.)

They shaped and transformed me

Into someone they'd liked to see

A quiet modest young lady

Well, that's who I was meant to be

(Noleta being created. Plus a play on Vasyl's repulsion towards being perceived as a woman (or man) being disregarded completely. "They" is Dura and Merlin in particular interfering with the ritual thus causing it to be. The perfect vessel for Merlin)

I'm pure, I'm pure, I'm pure as a lamb

I'm heaven's little virgin, too holy for man

I'm glass, I'm fire, I don't know hate

And that's how I'll get to the pearly gate

(Noleta is not allowed any sort of hatred or negativity, and with how it is but a body and unwilling consciousness obeying Merlin's will and goal. Fire was the thing supposed to free it but it made it into what it is now - just glass, a pretty vial.)

I'm pure, I'm pure, pure as a lamb

I pray every morning and as much as I can

A whispered blessing is all I can say

To keep the demons like you away

(The green and blue text is Vasyl's consciousness still existing, still trying but failing to struggle and protest against the control of Merlin and, by proxy, Dura. Those attempts are futile (hence the prayer being whispered and "all they could do"))

Now that I am beautiful

I wear what you want, you saved my soul

I have two ears for listening

And I'll keep doing what I'm told

(Noleta's essence - it listens to Merlin, it does what has to be done. It's beautiful to Dura. And Merlin is the soul that has been saved from obliteration)

And I hope you'll love me too

But I don't seem to be enough for you

I'm killing myself slowly

What else do you want me to do?

(Noleta (but, moreso, Merlin) seeks appreciation and praise from others - especially Dura - but receives it rarely. The green text is Vasyl', whose sanity and consciousness is rotting within a body they can't control.)

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Refrain already explained

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You watered your garden and I grew

But you destroyed me, you grabbed me by the roots

You plucked my petals just like the devil would do

And if I'm going to hell, I hope that you go too

(Water is an ironically fitting symbol here - it's what hinders fire. And fire was the thing supposed to free them. The green and blue text is Vasyl' once again: they still hate Dura, even and especially while their body is forced to enact her will. She was the one who let the soul Merlin settle in Vasyl' and thus took their ability to do the one thing their life was dedicated to - their petals, their roots. And gods does the consciousness still desire hell to rain upon Dura.)

***

Now I feel dirty, look what you did

I wasn't an object, I was a kid

And I'm scarred and mangled, I am used

And all of this because of you

(Blue and green is Vasyl', referring to them not having been someone who should have held the burden of Merlin. They feel uncomfortable, dirty even, existing still as a consciousness within their body now following Merlin's and/or Dura's will. Noleta, as a body, has a lot of scars from the fire that was supposed to be freedom. Text in gold is Dura responding to Vasyl's struggle. After all, they were the one to come to Esperia, even if by accident. So the blame's on them, right?)

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