okay, rambly personal post because I need to get it out of my system at 3am apparently, but yeah so I'm very badly platonically authority figure crushing on my choir director (as I've already mentioned like fifteen times, even on this mainly study related tumblr lmao get a grip) and I just MISS HER SO MUCH, as obviously all of our rehearsals got cancelled indefinitely and like right before everything got cancelled we had a choir service and a huge long rehearsal so at least I got to see her a lot but ughh the distancing thing makes the crush so much worse cause I can't stop thinking about her and hope she's okayyy. and I just listened to the recording I made of the songs we sang and I'm so sad, there were gonna be two more services for Easter which also got cancelled and the one week trip to Austria we were taking in early June is like 99% cancelled too I guess, this just sucks immensely and I don't even care about other stuff that got cancelled for me (like my birthday lmao) just the choir things and I can't even like contact her and talk because we don't know each other THAT well, I might write an email or sth but at the same time I'm also super scared it would be weird contacting her out of the blue ughhh
