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percie’s journal - entry 3!

(originally written tuesday june 30th, 4:50 pm.)

entry 3 - treadmill time :3

i haven’t really been able to do much these past few days in terms of astral training, but i have been keeping consistent with things in the physical!

i’m glad for that. upping my endurance will help with a lot of stuff. patrols, cross country in the fall, pacer tests… i also just really like running.

if i can do 20 minutes on the treadmill while watching a show i can surely do 20 minutes on the trail while music plays in my head :)

sometimes i stop at 15, but then i do an incline walk to make up for it. though the next time i do that i’m gonna do it at a lower level- i had it on 10 and upped the level for the last 3 minutes of the show i was watching, and i was literally holding on to the bars in front of me to not get wheeled off 😭 idk why i continued on that height

on another note, i need to find a good rubber track so i can do some speed training.

i miss my 200 meter dash :( i wasn’t even able to do it at finals this year since i was sick

AGH now i’m getting off topic :/

𓏸˚ 𓆝 ｡ଳ ₊˚ 𓆝𓈒𓏸˚♬ ⊹ 𓈒𓏸˚ 𓆝 ｡ଳ ₊˚ 𓆝𓈒𓏸˚♬ ⊹

anyways, remember to not overdo it. reminder for everyone and also myself.

take breaks if you need. drink some water.

good times big fun 😎✌️but like stay safe too. especially with the recent heatwaves in europe. be careful y’all

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percie’s journal - entry 10!

(originally written friday july 31st, 12:21 am)

entry 10 - you say goodbye and i say hello. hello, hello!

Today was a pretty chill day! I woke up, annoyed my brothers and ate some breakfast:

The morning was quite dull, mostly just scrolling through youtube and doing chores- but at around 2-ish my mother asked me to check on my brother at the park. I said sure because

the park is so awesome. i’ve been playing at it since i was a little kid and it has this foresty area that just feels absolutely magical to me.

I COULD FINALLY DO THAT FOREST BILOCATION I WANTED TO DO LAST TIME.

So yeah, it was fun :)

I babysat my brother and his friend for a bit, & when I went into the woods, they “meditated” with me!

only because i had to convince her to not whack me over the head to “make the process quicker.”

(i’m not gonna say it was bilocation because it really wasn’t n i’m afraid i might have just been doing it wrong this whole time. Or at least i mixed up my terms.)

It was quite funny, she told me a story through it- something about a narwhals cousin dying and noogieing her big brother and watching youtube. Flying a helicopter to McDonalds with her cousin and her aunt.

And throughout all of that, I was practicing my visualization. I may go more into depth on that later, though I lost focus near the end.

The rest of the day went by pretty quick. I walked the two back to the friend’s place and we played some video games before my brothers and I had to head home.

Later that night I did some physical training and cranked out the first one shot i ever posted here ^^ i’m still a little nervous about sharing my work haha

𓏸˚ 𓆝 ｡ଳ ₊˚ 𓆝𓈒𓏸˚♬ ⊹ 𓈒𓏸˚ 𓆝 ｡ଳ ₊˚ 𓆝𓈒𓏸˚♬ ⊹

All in all, it was pretty productive for something I almost considered a rest day.

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percie’s journal - entry 9!

(originally written sunday, july 26th, 11:06 pm)

entry 9 - strawberry fields… nothing is real…

Today was a relatively nice day. Lately i’ve been working on my writing in my father’s office rather than in the living room. Partially because my youngest brother keeps hogging the living room pc to play roblox with his friend, and partially because it’s just so fun in there.

It’s honestly easier to focus. Everything’s quite streamlined and I can multitask easy peasy.

The only downside is that my father keeps barging in to make sure that i’m not doing anything “suspicious”- like the most i’ve been doing is checking the Cascade Coast discord server (wink wink nudge nudge) and working on my fanfic.

All only because I had the door closed to block out any distractions, btw.

He does it because he’s concerned but the way he says it just comes off as so entitled.

But enough of that- let’s get back on topic.

Today’s attempt at bilocation- i say attempt because it was rather messy, was done not in the forest like i had originally intended it to be, but in a patch of grass on a sidewalk.

I had wanted to do it in the forest,

(that was the whole reason i had walked to the park, other than getting my youngest brother’s jitters out because he was hyper)

but my brothers were being little shits because my youngest wanted to go home. so i did it there near the curb :/

My sights were a lot different than when I usually bilocated.

I didn’t have control over my body. There was this ringing in my ears- I couldn’t hear much. My brothers were bickering with each other, but that was generously muffled.

I was running, running running running to i don’t know where. Everything was just filled with light.

Like not even a solid color to be seen- it was just pure blinding light.

The environment, the sky, me. I could barely see myself, just a little outline of where my hands were supposed to be as I kept jogging.

My focus flickered a few times, but it was generally the same scene each time.

I don’t know if that counts as bilocation or what it counts as.

I don’t know what it was. Could anyone have known what it was?

I brought it on voluntarily, but everything after that was out of my control.

Weird times, man. Weird times.

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percie’s journal - entry 8!

(originally written thursday july 23rd, 12:58 am)

entry 8 - i'm so fucking scared 😬

I don’t know why i’m scared. My head hurts right now I really should be going to bed.

But this anxiety hasn't left me since yesterday. Was it yesterday? Fuck, I'm losing track of time.

Since I left the movie theater, this thought has been eating at me.

I don't have any clear way of getting an answer for myself. And the pure uncomfortability is impeding on my studies to find an answer.

I haven’t ran. I can’t focus. It’s a real catch-22.

I almost want to contract just so I can fight whatever the fuck this is, but i’m not ready at all and I don’t even know if that would help.

l know i’m being impatient, it’s embarrassing.

Even while bilocating tonight, I could feel it, y’know?

It hindered my senses- mainly sight and sound, though it could have just been nighttime where I traveled to? It was this weird hill, grassy yet everything was a murky blue and gray and black… I felt like I was underwater.

It was hard to see anything, I could barely breathe, and through it all I could feel it looming over me.

(not a very fun experience. despite the ironic theme of this blog i am mildly thalassophobic :( )

The fireflies helped guide some sight back to me. And when I screamed i could hear it clearly.

But as soon as I ran up that hill and got to the top, I lost focus.

What’s happening to me?

𓏸˚ 𓆝 ｡ଳ ₊˚ 𓆝𓈒𓏸˚♬ ⊹ 𓈒𓏸˚ 𓆝 ｡ଳ ₊˚ 𓆝𓈒𓏸˚♬ ⊹

pov me last night

ok that’s kinda mean 😭

anyways MORNING UPDATE RAHHHH

or well, as morning as it can be considering it’s nearly four in the afternoon as i write this.

i’m off my game and it’s bothering me. this thought i’ve been having is bothering me a bit more, but i don’t want to rush myself. i haven’t spoken to any of the entities i’ve been considering contracting with, nor have i even met them in the astral yet. i barely know what vetting questions i should ask.

the sleep helped, i’m thinking a bit more rationally. that and it’s less hot in my room now.

i’m gonna figure out a way to get an answer to this so i can stop thinking about it, but one way or another, i’m not gonna let it mess with me as much as it has been these past few days.

the idea of it just keeps growing bigger with all my what if’s, and spiraling will only hurt me more.

i’m gonna go on a run today and figure shit out :)

i just need to find my headphones.

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percie’s journal - entry 7!

entry 7 - octopus garden

Man, this week has been busy. I’m sad I haven’t been able to post more often but what with my grandparents coming over and the roadtrip happening literally tomorrow and my dad wanting me to practice java i have had a lot on my plate :(

BUT I was able to go shopping with my little brother yesterday, which was very fun!

It was still hot out, so first we stopped at a gas station and got Arizona’s. (which were much more refreshing than the pepsi i got last time thank the gods he suggested that)

Once we got to the Mystic Shoppe we blew all our money. I had 28 bucks left after my recent excursion on monday and he had 10 in his pocket.

Together we got:

Tarot Cards (for me. i wanna learn)

A black tourmaline bracelet (for me. extra protection :))

And an altar bell (for him. he spotted it while we were at the register)

He rang it all the way home :))) He was so happy :))) WE were so happy :)))

After that we got some candy from the ice cream place, and walked the trail til we felt tired of it. Then we went home.

The vibes were a lot different than monday. Could just be because I had someone with me, but I felt a lot better.

𓏸˚ 𓆝 ｡ଳ ₊˚ 𓆝𓈒𓏸˚♬ ⊹ 𓈒𓏸˚ 𓆝 ｡ଳ ₊˚ 𓆝𓈒𓏸˚♬ ⊹

Sorry for the short post, but that’s all I got. I still need to practice my astral skills, but i’ve been also been working on my form :) so expect to see some doodles of that soon!

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percie’s journal - entry 6!

(originally written wednesday july 8th, 1:17 am)

entry 6 - eleanor rigby

I had another go at bilocation tonight, sitting up in my bed. This try was all the more haphazard out than the rest, mainly because I didn’t have an idea of what to do. I just felt like it.

The environment felt… off, for a reason. I couldn’t hear my own footsteps and this eerie piano song was playing on loop.

(Come to think of it, i think it was this?)

I was in a black void, a similar environment as the last few times. There was a white doorway in front of me, which I ran towards.

Upon entering I was greeted with the exact same room I had woken up in the last time I attempted bilocation: bookshelf to the left, couch to the right. The only difference was that there was a full length mirror to the left of the bookshelf!

I struggled to “walk” over there- I just kept appearing at my destination and the last step I had taken. Like I had teleported.

This ability could be useful in the future, but I suppose I should practice more control first if I ever intend to use it in an actual battle.

Anyways, back to the mirror- the first thing I noticed was that I looked relatively the same. Just with a little touch ups.

My hair was dyed the same, albeit a little neater, and cut differently. Tbh, I kinda looked like a jellyfish.

But my outfit? Oh, it was funky. That was the second thing I noticed.

I looked like Paul McCartney!

(or billy shears, if you’re a fan of that theory.)

I didn’t really mind it, tbh. With how much I was struggling to visualize tonight, I thought I looked pretty swag 😎

Then I noticed a set of leering eyes in the back of my mirror that totally spooked me out of it!!!

(3-color pen rendition:)

What with that and the events of Monday’s shopping… I’m gonna take it a little easy today. Get some sleep, drink some matcha, and definitely make some protection sigils.

𓏸˚ 𓆝 ｡ଳ ₊˚ 𓆝𓈒𓏸˚♬ ⊹ 𓈒𓏸˚ 𓆝 ｡ଳ ₊˚ 𓆝𓈒𓏸˚♬ ⊹

I did in fact take it easy that day! Very easy, enough that it kind of leaked into my other habits. That it leaked into my week.

I’ve been rotting and so has this blog, for the teeniest tiniest bit.

But fear not: I’ve not died of bedrot yet. events have happened today. I have another post planned. But I will write it tomorrow.

Why?

Because: I am sleepy.

Goodnight :)

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percie’s journal - entry 5!

(originally written monday july 6th, 4:26 pm)

entry 5 - shopping! yay! yippee! yay!

Shopping went as expected. I wasn’t able to find much today, lol :/ I got a physical journal so i’d be able to write more often, and keep track of things at places where i can’t necessarily have a phone on me (i.e, school, protests, airplanes… yeah) and also because journaling physically is freaking awesome :D

Anyways, here’s my list. LMK if y’all have any other suggestions 

THINGS I WANT TO GET

Selenite

Rose Quartz

Journal + Pen

Some kind of container for a mini/pocket altar

A way to start a fire (small lighter, matches, et cetera)

Tarot cards

More books on witchcraft so I can study up!!!

Mini Candles

THINGS I GOT TODAY

Journal + Cool Pokémon pen

Lip Balm

Candy for me and my little brothers to share

A mini can of pepsi

So yeah, i wasn’t able to get much done today- but the Mystic Shoppe near me opens wednesday, so i’m obvi going there. They have a lot of funky jewelry and gemstones, and various kinds of tarot.

And i’m gonna stop by the hardware store- idk why, but they might have something I could use. Like a lighter or matches. 

Also because my mom said she’d stop by there- I really wanna see her. Mainly because i’m running low on cash and I feel a little paranoid right now. I wanna go home.

It could be just because it’s hot out, but Main Street has felt very off today. I don’t have a tried and true way to really tell if there’s witches about, at least not until I have more experience under my belt? But my gut feeling is telling me to leave. 

I don’t know for sure. Things seem well around for the most part, I could just be paranoid. Or sick from the heat.

That’s part of why i’m writing this in the library right now. It’s in the 80’s now and i’m wearing a black dress, black socks, and black rain boots. Like, the only things that aren’t black are my flannel and the neon stripes on my socks… smh, man. Like I was sitting in the shady part of a bus stop and chugging my pepsi, it’s not going too well for me :/

𓏸˚ 𓆝 ｡ଳ ₊˚ 𓆝𓈒𓏸˚♬ ⊹ 𓈒𓏸˚ 𓆝 ｡ଳ ₊˚ 𓆝𓈒𓏸˚♬ ⊹

At this point, i’m just gonna go to the hardware store and go home. 

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percie’s journal - entry 4!

(originally written monday july 6th, 1:36 am)

entry 4 - sigh hhguyghhhghahgdh 🙃🙃🙃🙃🥲🥲🥲🥲😔😔😔😔😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫(fears and anxieties.)

ok so ignore all that!

these past few days have been a train wreck. like there’s been the good the bad and the ugly of my week but my goodness, i’ve also been feeling quite depressed lately :(

i’ve been running and walking and hill climbing but i haven’t been outside much, (aside from the groovy 4th of july party in my neighborhood) which irks me. i plan to go outside tomorrow though!!! a venture to main street!!!

there’s a lot of cool shops at the main street where i live. there’s an antique store right next to an overpriced ice cream place, right across from my local library <3

there’s also a gas station where my brother and i would go for drinks and candy, and there’s a cute little mystic shoppe next to the place i used to go for karate. (my sensei moved :( i’m still sad about that he was like a second dad to me)

anyways, i’m gonna walk down there all this week as i have a ton of things i want to do yet everything’s open on different days. honestly i just want to get all my shopping done and items hidden before my grandparents come over.

of all the people, i’m the most nervous about them finding out. i love my papa, and i have a… strained ish relationship with my grandmother, but idk what they’d do if they knew.

they’re very religious, bible thumping christians. like, they don’t even know my parents aren’t religious, they gave me a children’s bible for one of my birthdays.

i just don’t know if i can trust them with this. i don’t think i can trust them with this. they fucked me up as a kid :(

and if they knew my parents would know by proxy which would be a whole other rodeo!!!

ugh, i need to go to bed :/

𓏸˚ 𓆝 ｡ଳ ₊˚ 𓆝𓈒𓏸˚♬ ⊹ 𓈒𓏸˚ 𓆝 ｡ଳ ₊˚ 𓆝𓈒𓏸˚♬ ⊹

i’m excited for tmrw :D i’ll write more on how it goes in the morning!!!!