OK, rant time
So I started dating this girl in february. She comes after me, which is nice because I’m still at the stage where I don’t think girls find me attractive yet. But apparently she did, so I start dating her. She’s cool and we have a lot in common, then like a month in she says she loves me. Kinda freaked out, don’t say it back for another month, but after a while just roll with it. Whatever, I really like her and maybe I would fall in love with her. We gucci for like 3 months. Then she goes on a trip to cuba for a month. I, trying to be a good boyfriend, text her all the time and tell her I miss her. She didn’t have service, so she would get the texts whenever she got to a wifi hotspot and respond and say how nice it was to get a flood of messages. We continue like that and everything is hunky-dory. Then she comes home and tells me all about her trip and I genuinely liked listening to her talk. Then I go to England for a month and almost immediately she stops talking to me. England has wifi, so we could text whenever we want, but no. When I messaged her, she wouldn’t respond for a day and then give me a one word answer. I try to hold conversations, but how can I possibly be expected to when she never holds up her end? So I basically gave up, chalked it up to her being stressed over work or something. Get back, all excited to tell her about my trip and have someone to talk to again. But she never wants to see me. Too tired. Have to get up early the next day. Too far a drive. She wasn’t even the one driving. Finally meet up with her and she barely speaks to me, spends the whole time texting. Convince her to stay at my house because I actually did miss her, but she doesn’t want to be there and its clear. The only time she really acted like I was there was when she wanted to have sex, but I didn’t have a condom and suddenly I didn’t matter anymore. 3 days with little contact. She’s about to go home for the rest of summer and I finally get her to go to dinner with me, but she has another friend there. She’s nice and they had a great time, but man it hurt. It hurt because that’s the way she used to talk to me. Now all I got was a sideways look or the subject changed when I tried to enter the conversation. Finally confront her and she says she’s tired of people. Same thing as always, except this time she let’s me know that includes me. Basically, she decided she didn’t like me enough to be important to her or some shit and that was that. Nothing I could say or do. I’m not that broken up about it, but still it’s fucking with my head. How could she love me and then not so suddenly? maybe she mistook it for love, easy enough thing to do. But why didn’t she just tell me. She said we drifted apart but I tried Damn It. I tried to talk, to be a good boyfriend and I got nothing in return. She even stopped saying goodnight. Also, it would’ve been nice to know I was single while I was hanging out with a bunch of hot chicks in England. Why didn’t she just tell me? And I don’t wanna be pissy and delete her off social media but shit it hurts to see her acting like nothing happened.
*sigh* Whatever, Single again.
Whatup ladies
