N 「困ったな。どうしようかな」くらい(苦笑)。逮捕後、約4か月拘留されたんだけど、最初の取調べで「あなたの調書はコッチで用意してあります」とか言われちゃってさ。事実とは関係なく「ラッパーが営利目的で大麻を育ててた」ってストーリーが出来上がってるんだよ。
S 冤罪って、そうやって作られていくんだろうね。
N 麻取と県警本部と所轄が三つ巴で9か月ぐらい内偵してたらしいから、結局13か月も俺のこと調べてたわけだけど、大麻を売ってた証拠は出てこなかった。当たり前だよね。売ってないんだから。
S 保釈中は、すごい勢いで制作してたよね。アルバム3枚とMIX CD、PVとかグッズも作って、しかも出所後に1万人規模のライブをやるために始めたクラファンでは、目標が1000万円だったのに最終的に3600万円も集まって。
N すべてはシャバで協力してくれた人達のおかげだよ。アルバムをプロデュースしてくれたBACHLOGICもそうだし、PV撮ってくれたヤツらもそうだし、配信含めて手続きをしてくれた俺のチームの手柄。9sari Groupもリリースをサポートしてくれたし、ライターの渡辺志保ちゃんもプレスリリースを出してくれた。クラファンのシステムもKRESSさんとバグサックが作ってくれた。とにかく周りの人たちにマジで恵まれてた。
S 友達の多さに救われた。
N 「皆に支えられてるな」って思ったよ。今回の一件は、決して良いことばかりじゃなかったけど、価値ある時間になった。
S 今まさにグラフィティとか草で捕まって「マジで終わった」って思ってる若い子たちもいると思うけど、人生って単純じゃないし、そんなにつまらないもんじゃないよって言っときたい。若い頃に味わった失敗が、30、40代になって生きてくる事だってある。腐らずに頑張って欲しいよね。
Umareta koto jitai ni imi nante nai
kedo moshimo hoshiin naraba tsukechaina yo
sekai de kyou omae wa ne koko ni shika inai
sono omae no koto o oshiecha kurenai ka
koko ja nee basho ni mou nigechaitai shi ne
mune no oku no aza mo iechainai
sono aza no wake nado shiranai ga
moshika suru to orera issho kamoshirenai na
Sagashi mono ga nee tte dakara sore de meitteru
de hokoru mono nee ja
saka noboru mo nee jan
igi mo imi mo mienai
ikkou ni densha konee sono eki de
chansu matsu yorya mashi kamo you gotta make it
mori de mayoedo komorebi
ue mirya sora wa hirogaru ze sono me ni
nanimo nee saredo ne te ni shitee mon nara ato de
keiba de ittara daihonmei ni kakete mo omorokunai mon de
ete toka fuete o oboeta yo subette korogarya sora wa hire
Umareta koto jitai ni imi nante nai
kedo moshimo hoshiin naraba tsukechaina yo
sekai de kyou omae wa ne koko ni shika inai
sono omae no koto o oshiecha kurenai ka
koko ja nee basho ni mou nigechaitai shi ne
mune no oku no aza mo iechainai
sono aza no wake nado shiranai ga
moshika suru to orera issho kamoshirenai na
Netsukezu asa o mukaete mata alone
kami shimeta tte hajimatteru kyou de ushiro nya kako
hiki zutte mo motte nandaro yoku kireru hasami
dareka ni sore watasaretemo gaten ga ikanai
sumaho no gamen tte nadete wa nagame
dareka no kurashi sore o nozoite mo kawannee
life tte namae no sa sono eiga no shuyaku wa omae ni kimatten jan
sorya meikaku
saisho kara junchou nara naru kamo bad end
sore yorya mitee monda dai donden o ato de
ochi nara ato tsuke sore de sa iin da yo ore mo omae mo tabun minna
Umareta koto jitai ni imi nante nai
kedo moshimo hoshiin naraba tsukechaina yo
sekai de kyou omae wa ne koko ni shika inai
sono omae no koto o oshiecha kurenai ka
koko ja nee basho ni mou nigechaitai shi ne
mune no oku no aza mo iechainai
sono aza no wake nado shiranai ga
moshika suru to orera issho kamoshirenai na
Kuro ka to omotta kedo yoku mirya fukai buruu
iro shimi tsuite kogasu mune life
ima shinenai riyuu hito shirezu mujun mijuku wa imada kiezu shittou shite neru
mujaki ni warau tsura dokka kage furezu
yuganda ichimen fusaide futsuu nisete raku ni suruu
iyashi ni kawareta itami yori itai kizu
hedateru mono ga aru sorya kizashi no bun
inochi ga moete mata kyou mo koto o ugokasu
kokoro ugokasu honnou no kotoba hanasu
isshun no awa isshou bun nanshuu mawaru
ishi n inari utagau mousou no mama mou sono mama
tooku natta bun chikaku natta tooku natta bun chikaku natta
doko datte iin da yo
shitake nanka shinakuta tte ikou hi ga kure kkara
me no oku ni himeta ego shimau mabuta naa
donna toki ni konna uta utau?
Maa kibun shidai da yo na, mayou na nanimo nee yo
koe kikoetemasu ka aka no tanin
koe kikoeten no ka yo obaka yarou
Mukai kaze ni ashi ga kyou mo yorokeru
hikari to yami no isshou owannee dorokei
ja itsu ni narya onore tte mon o hokoreru?
sorya kou da mitsukeru yorya tsukure sono te
Umareta koto jitai ni imi nante nai
kedo moshimo hoshiin naraba tsukechaina yo
sekai de kyou omae wa ne koko ni shika inai
sono omae no koto o oshiecha kurenai ka
koko ja nee basho ni mou nigechaitai shi ne
mune no oku no aza mo iechainai
sono aza no wake nado shiranai ga
moshika suru to orera issho kamoshirenai na
Sha ni kamaetetari gure chainai nara omae no danro ni maki o kubena ima
tada umareta onaji konna jidai
kedo sukoshi dake hanashi o kiicha kurenai ka?
kirei goto dake ja kyou mimi ga itai demo toki ni sore ni sugaritai hi mo aru
kizu ya namida no hitotsu futatsu dare shi mo ga sono mune no oku no oku ni kakushi mogaku
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There’s no inherent reason why we’re born
If you want a reason, ya gotta make it yourself
There’s only one of you to be found in this whole world
So won’t you tell me a little more about who you are?
You wanna run away to anywhere but here,
but it ain’t gonna heal those bruises on your heart
I don’t know how your bruises got there,
but maybe it was the same way as me
I have nothin’ I’m lookin’ for, that’s what’s got me down
If you got nothin’ to be proud of,
you have nothin’ to show for yourself, yeah?
I can’t see a point or a meaning
The train’s never gonna arrive at the station that way
Instead of waiting for a chance to find you, you gotta make it
Lost in the forest, light streaming through the trees,
look up and see the vastness of the sky
Even if you have nothing now, save the things you want for later
Betting on the likely winner of the race is no fun at all
I know my strengths and weaknesses; I slip and fall, but only think how vast the sky above me is
There’s no inherent reason why we’re born
If you want a reason, ya gotta make it yourself
There’s only one of you to be found in this whole world
So won’t you tell me a little more about who you are?
You wanna run away to anywhere but here,
but it ain’t gon heal those bruises on your heart
I don’t know how your bruises got there,
but maybe it was the same way as me
I put myself to bed, morning comes and I’m still alone
I grit my teeth as this new day starts; my past is there
dragging behind me, but don’t you have some sharp scissors?
Even if I pass them to someone, they won’t know what to do
You gaze at your phone, stroking the screen
Getting a peek into someone else’s life won’t change yours
In this movie we call life, you’re clearly the one who’s the hero
That’s obvious
Even if things have gone well from the start, you might get a bad end
I’d love to see you do a big turnaround from that and
have a punchline to top it off; I think we’d all be happy with that
There’s no inherent reason why we’re born
If you want a reason, ya gotta make it yourself
There’s only one of you to be found in this whole world
So won’t you tell me a little more about who you are?
You wanna run away to anywhere but here,
but it ain’t gonna heal those bruises on your heart
I don’t know how your bruises got there,
but maybe it was the same way as me
I thought it was black, but I looked closer and it was really deep blue
It’s set in so deep, I’ll never get it out for the rest of my life
I sleep resentfully cuz my inconsistency and immaturity haven’t gone away; the reason I can’t die now is my secret too
You laugh innocently, your face untouched by the shadows’ hue
I hide the warped part of myself, pretending to be normal to just get through
These wounds hurt more than the pain of healing
Having things be divided is just one of the signs
Feelin’ on fire as I keep setting things in motion
I’ll move your heart with rhymes I think of naturally
I’ll replay that one little moment for as long as I live
Stuck in a delusion that I’d never freeze up, yeah it’s stuck in my mind
Things that were far off are now close, things that were far off are now close
I don’t care where we go
No need to prepare, let’s leave now cuz the Sun’s goin’ down
When you close your eyes, you cover up the ego that’s hidden in there, hey,
when would I ever sing a song like this?
It all depends on how you feel. There’s no reason to be lost
Can you hear me, all you strangers out there?
You fuckin’ listening, dumbasses?!
The headwind pushes me back, making me stumble
The light and shadow forever in a cat-and-dog chase
When will I ever be able to feel proud of myself?
Well, stop waiting for chance to find you, use your hands to grab it!
There’s no inherent reason why we’re born
If you want a reason, ya gotta make it yourself
There’s only one of you to be found in this whole world
So won’t you tell me a little more about who you are?
You wanna run away to anywhere but here,
but it ain’t gonna heal those bruises on your heart
I don’t know how your bruises got there,
but maybe it was the same way as me
If you’ll always stand ready and never stray from your path, go add more fuel to your fire
All we have in common is being born in the same era,
but will you listen to my story just for a bit?
Listening to nothing but lip service today is givin’ me a headache, but sometimes I want to rely on it
Everyone has a few scars and tears they hide deep inside as they continue the struggle