Laszlo Kreizler Headcanons
Headcanon 1:
(Trigger Warning)
Laszlo Kreizler self harmed when he was younger. I know there isn't any mention of him harming himself in Caleb Carr's books, but this is something I firmly believe in. In one of the last two episodes we see Laszlo break a wine glass before stabing his withered arm, because he obviously blames his insecurities/injury for not confessing his feelings for Mary sooner. I think when he was younger he often blamed what happened to his arm to cause most of the heartache he felt when he was a teenager. I don't think he self harmed in a very long time because he managed to get past hurting himself, but the pain of losing Mary was too much for him. He couldn't handle all of the sadness and slef loathing/self doubt he was feeling and therefore hurt himself.
Headcanon 2:
He was bullied at university. Most of his classmates most likely thought his way of thinking was outlandish and obsured. Not to mention the fact that a lot of them probably made fun of his arm or made jokes about his Hungarian-German background. But John and Roosevelt were always there to back him up and defend him; that's why they stayed friends after they graduated. I doubt Laszlo would have stayed friends with anyone if they hadn't been anything but loyal and showed him some form of kindness.
Headcanon 3:
Sometimes he goes weeks without sleep. I think he suffers from insomnia because he worries a lot about the children at the institute among many other things. I'm sure his self doubt plays a big roll in it as well. He spends late nights at the institute and sometimes falls asleep face down in a book he was reading. Or falls asleep on an essay he was writing and wakes up with ink smudges on his face. It was kinda hinted to in The Angel of Darkness a little.
Headcanon 4:
He talks in his sleep. Personally, I think anyone who thinks and worries as much as he does has to talk in their sleep. But I also think it's something absolutely adorable. Imagine just sitting there, him accidently falling asleep sitting next to the fire place and he softly mumbles something incoherent.
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This is what I've written so far, I might make a part two. Let me know if you'd like a part two btw!!
