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[spamtonhater1997haterfan]

ahhahaha. i should um. stop. looking at him while hes sleeping

[chamrocka]

#NormalNormal #NormalTingz #NormalTings

[jota-ele-ene-blog]

Normal normal. Nada más que decir

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[dresstofete-blog]

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[oneeyedsamurai]

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[hookahsmokingcaterpillarshit]

i know all my problems, that's my problem. i can't fix them. i know how but i don't really know how. 

for example, if i go to a party or a hangout, the first thing i'm gonna notice is how people react to me. i won't care about anything else but if they're "okay" with me being there. i was never like this. i used to just be myself and i wouldn't care what people thought. whoever liked me liked me and whoever didn't didn't. but now i'm so deep in this hole of 0 confidence that i can't even try and pretend i have confidence. if i pretend for a few seconds lets say someone reacts. they don't "react" really but they do in a deeper way, like i pay attention to their eye movements or what they're saying and how they're saying it and while i'm paying so much attention to that i can't focus on being myself because i'm being too careful. i end up acting like half myself half retarded. so i notice how they act and if it's off, like they give me an odd look or reaction, i hide in my stupid little shell. when i hide in my shell people can tell and then it gets awkward because i end up being super quiet and boring and nonreactive and all i can think about is what i did to make myself look weird. and it's even more awkward because they know it and i know it. i just don't enjoy myself anymore. whenever i say anything that sounds like something i would say i end up thinking too much about it and thinking i'm annoying or weird and then i just kinda give up. a lot of this is because i'm always sad and mad too so i can't even pretend to be happy. when i'm sad or mad and i'm with stefanie or something i end up being myself because i can be a sarcastic bitch but around other people they're just gonna be like "wtf is her problem" and hate me SOO 

i know this is my problem and i know all i need is confidence but i can't do it. :c

i don't even have the confidence to look at my face anymore. i used to look at myself all the time and be like "wow i'm pretty cute" and now i can't even pretend. 

i just need basic happiness because that's what gives you confidence and confidence makes you more attractive and interesting. it's writing a story of your life, you either wanna show it off and build it and make it fun and interesting and people would wanna read it or you ignore it and just read it to yourself and criticize it and hate it.

i spend so much time figuring out why i'm sad and why i can't do things the way i used to that i'm wasting time that could be used for actually doing things. but. i. can't. do it ?