#not arg

[katiana-arts]

"She knows where you are, don’t hide, she sees you"

[sunnixsunshine]

Chops says he's moving out on the 8th this month. Fucking finally ;A;

[yourfavehasnobones]

sorry for focusing on this so hard, its just that as someone who has been through a lot of abuse before and who is trying to unlearn abusive behaviors it really is possible i fucked up. and if i didnt and it really is just lying thats sick. thats really sick. i never want to be as awful as ive been before again and if someone is calling me an abuser for their sick kicks i cannot understate how incredibly awful i would feel. i never want to make other people feel the way i did, and that is not something to just accuse someone of doing.

very rarely do i find such unneeded hatred thrown wildly with no cause. i hope i can sort this out, but i am 100% serious when i say, even if things get worse, i dont want anyone to get involved. this is my life, not yours. thank you for understanding.

[spgarchives]

Hi

so uh.. I’m Hawk.

I’m a new “let’s archive everything Katie and the SPG team throws at us because holy bologna, there’s a lot of it” blog member person..

I’m usually on tumblr as @hawkeye221b, but Hawk or Hawkeye is fine.

So uh.. yeah. I’m here, i’m a person, hi.

[spgarchives]

Is it okay to submit deleted messages?

absolutely! this blog is to record every single thing that happens relating to this ARG, and things that are deleted could be important. so please do!

[futuresignal]

How am I supposed to be a normal teenager, living and loving in the moment, when I know what's going to happen and I've known for months??

I'm not making this up. I'm not exaggerating or looking for attention. I'll feel something, hear something, see something, know that I've already been here. I've been told it's just intuition. That I'm just like my mom because she somehow always knows when someone is lying. But it isn't that. I'm not talking about lying, I dream about and sense the future. In colour-coded, mind-searing dreams. I feel it in my body. I see it in my dreams. I know it before it happens.

So when people laugh, tell me I'm just sensitive, or blame it on the films I watch or videogames I play, I want to scream. I want to crawl out of my skin and be an orb of soul. I've been like this for years. I've tested it, tried to ignore it. There's no escaping it.

I don't want to be a show, I'm not a brand new mental case or pity party. I want to be believed. I know I'm not the only one.

If you see this and understand, i mean really understand, i hope you see this. I'm tired of being convinced I'm alone.

Thank you for your time.

[futuresignal]

I know something is coming. It's not some Final Destination thing, Not the end of the world,, but something is coming. I don't know what it is yet, and that scares me.

I've felt this way for a long time. It clicked when I was 9. It's like a low hum under everything that spikes when it realizes it's being heard. Like the dreams, the gut feelings, the universe's personal pranks on me are all signs and pieces to a huge jigsaw that I lost the box of. I don't know what the end result is, but it's telling me to pay attention.

That's a big part of why I'm here talking about it.

I don't think it's just a random glitch in my brain. I think there's a reason. I don't want to ignore it anymore. I want to track it, connect the dots, and figure out why I've been forced to work on this endless jigsaw for years. I need to figure it out before whatever this is, whatever is coming.. comes. before it's inevitable, because I can't watch movies without begging for the ending to be spoiled for me.

Even if it's bad, even if it's the end of the world as we know it. I'd prefer to walk into it with my eyes wide and knowing what to expect rather than duck and hide and have it get me anyway or pretend it's not there at all. I'm tired of pretending.

Thank you for your time.