#not in the queue

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Cat Jail Guard: What's that?

Petey, holding a cup, standing next to a comically large robot: A smoothie.

[malewifestation]

Commuter Rail Slow-mo @ Quincy Center

05/21/2024

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Misha's texts this morning and non-bot video

[katytheinspiredworkaholic]

#18 for writer asks!

18. Choose a passage from your writing. Tell me the backstory of this moment. How you came up with it, how it changed from start to end. Spicy addition: Questioner provides the passage.

From Chapter 11 of Correspondence

As soon as that door shuts, he’s walking towards Aaron. Unsure and careful for only the briefest of moments, Aaron’s face a look of hopeful, broken devastation in such a quiet way only he can express, and then Spencer lets go of all restraint. Jolts forward with a speed he didn’t know he possessed.

Runs straight into him.

His arms thrown around his neck and his body collides into Aaron’s who hasn’t moved an inch, embracing him as tightly as he can and not letting go for anything. The shock of touch so overwhelming it seizes up his spine and keeps him there as Aaron reacts on instinct alone -- catching him when he crashes into him. Like he’s always wanted to.

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Spencer is so slight and small in his arms, despite how tall he is. Aaron holds him to him, crushes him to his chest, near bending him back and putting an arch into his spine, as he holds him so close and fights the urge to collapse in on himself… and Spencer stays plastered to him all the while. Unwavering. One silhouette they are wrapped so tight.

Hotch can feel how fast Spencer’s heart is beating against his chest, through his back as he holds him close. It draws him back from the brink of panic he’d almost succumbed to.

“I’m so sorry,” Spencer breathes out, a sharp gasp of sound, and it breaks Aaron’s heart as much as it mends it. Spencer’s voice in his ear, his breath warm and alive as he speaks directly into Aaron’s shoulder. “I’m so sorry I said that the way I did. I just didn’t want you to never have heard me tell you that I --”

This is the moment that really solidified the entirety of the fic, for me. Before I came up with the long distance meet cute, the emails and phone calls and missed opportunities just out of reach, and before I planned to unveil these two men to each other using the five senses, I had this moment in mind. Spencer appearing at the FBI, the two never having met, and the first thing they do is hold each other as tightly as Hotch held him at the end of Revelations. I thought it would represent the final sense, touch, but it actually ended up being the fourth. (The final being taste, which I went into depth about later this same chapter).

But I had a soundtrack for the beginning of this chapter, and I listened to the same songs over and over again literally everyday, playing out these moments for months on end. Every time I was in the car driving my kids somewhere, or going to the grocery store, or forcing my toddler to nap via a car ride, the songs would play and I'd see Spencer showing up at the BAU and the two just... falling into each other. Which is a good thing, because I remember writing this chapter in a rush. It was so late on my posting schedule. I was writing on instinct alone, but I had it as good as memorized down to the millisecond after having it play in my head a thousand times. I remember not being quite happy with parts the chapter, but not wanting to keep my readers waiting another second longer.

This is the moment I wanted to share with everyone most.

(p.s. love you Mer 💕)

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Petey: im a huge hater but its just because i know everything [source is firefox-official here on tumblr]

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Hey y’all! I just wanted to say that I’m not going to be posting quotes for this week. Sorry for the late notice!

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I took this picture when I took a walk in Nov 2020 because I was sad about the finale...