#not really random

[aster-likes-space]

apparently the ides of March is like

a thingy

and this is my first one so idk what people usually do on this day

uhh…happy ides of March, enjoy your stabbing

[pikabysss]

I just need to talk about Blazblue music for a sec, more precisely, talk about Hazama's theme and make a short character analysis afterward....

(I hid it under the cut. It was getting long.)

One of the many reasons I like Hazama so much is because of his theme song's second version: Gluttony Fang II.

Okay, I'm not going to talk about the name, but I just need to say how it's intriguing how a character like Hazama is associated with gluttony and not Wrath or Envy. (Or Lust, but Lust is Jin's thing, with his theme song 'LUST Sin'. Lust in maj, yes, as if I couldn't read it.) They really chose the weirdest sins and twisted it. Like, seriously, you see that man, and you do not jump at the conclusion of: "Ah! Yes! Gluttony." Even Jin seems more lustful than Hazama seems gluttonous. However, his Astral Finish of a snake voring devouring his victim is quite intriguing...

But I honestly thought his theme song was Azrael's the first time I saw the names.

Anyway, name aside, the music itself is... well, taste is subjective, and it's more what it is showing/telling that interests me. Okay, let's get another something out of the way: I noticed Hazama has long fingers, and he often place them in a crooked or weird position. Like, he got a flexible hand and, therefore, fingers and they're animated like, you know, someone trying to get the attention of a cat. So, I just told myself, "Yeah, he has pianist fingers."

And how does Gluttony Fang II uncut start with!? A piano solo! And his la noire estethic just screams piano too, like, COME ON! This is GREAT!

The solo itself is great too. It starts serene, showing his how his façade is: polite and innofensive guy, but then get progressively more unhinged. (Honestly, I always picture Hazama playing the Piano part in my head. Like, him struggling to not let his façade slip while he plays, but eventually ends up mashing the keys. And, if you listen closely, you can FEEL the damn keys getting hit harder.)

I think the piano part really represents Hazama. Then, the electronic percussion and electric guitar gets in, and that's his Terumi side fully showing. But, since Chronophantasma was when they started to separate Hazama from Terumi, they had to make a HAZAMA theme and not a TERUMI theme. Anyway, that's how I see it. There are many more emotions into the song now. More than just adrenaline and anxiety and rage from his first version. There's some calmer piano moments shoved into the song, like saying that Hazama is more there than before. But the combination of the piano and guitar during the song shows that he has 2 sides too, and the way the notes gets chaotic sometimes on the piano's end, is just like Hazama trying to get control over that Terumi side. Even when they separate, we can agree that Hazama did not get rid of his Terumi side completely, as if Terumi was a bad infection left on him. So, even when the music gets way calmer and serene for a bit, it gets back at being heart pumping and anxiety inducing.

But, it's really a chaotic song because Hazama is a chaotic character. The sadder or more serene part could be a hint toward his past as Kazuma (who was basically a uwu soft guy). So, I kinda see it more like a Kazuma vs. Terumi kinda song, where they fight over control over that vessel, which is Hazama. However, the beginning is purely Hazama, indecisive and getting insane over the fact that he's basically two entity at once and that he doesn't want to pick a side.

Hazama is a sad character overall. There's two sides to a coin, but the coin falls on its border, which is something that shouldn't be happening. It's like Hazama has two choices: either he becomes Terumi (ally with Terumi) or becomes Kazuma (ally with Trinity), but he wants neither. He wants to be Hazama, but for that, he needs to develop his feelings. Otherwise, he's nothing but just a vessel to either souls to use. I do believe a part of Kazuma is inside Hazama. Nobody can deny that, I think. But Hazama is rejecting it just like he is rejecting Terumi. Which, I don't think he realises it, makes him suffer more than if he decided to choose. He's trying so hard to find a reason to exist, but for what reason? He could simply give up everything and go back with Terumi. He clearly has values and a will. He just doesn't understand it himself: That choosing a side hurts him and that he would rather be free. For someone as smart when it comes to perceiving other's emotions, he really sucks at introspection. That hole in his chest is clearly not the only thing that made him suffer. It just made him suffer MORE than the other stuff. Suffer so much that he managed to realise it.

Okay, so... Hazama is one of the best characters to write about '[...] is bad at feelings' kind of fics. That's... that's literally the major part of his character. That and the desire to find oneself.

[wereseoyoung]

holy shit i didnt think you'd post the taeil au so soon!! & oc is irene's sister?? wow the families in this series of aus really are iconic huh

I always post the next au the day after the one before it finishes!! and just know that this is only the start to iconic families👀👀👀

[jaejoongs-nipple-piercing]

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Random facts, let's see...they're not exactly random (I don't think)

1. My whole room is a mess except for my Kpop stuff. Everything is on the bookshelf or in a binder on the shelf. I was the same way in school- stuff on/in the desk was organized, my binders and backpacks were messy.

2. I wear glasses. I would love to get either contacts or Lasik (especially since I have to wear a mask and when I breathe I can't see), but my mom has told me I can't get contacts. She said I wouldn't use them and I wouldn't be able to put them in because her step-siblings had a hard time. Contacts are different now.

3. I have what's called a Generalized Anxiety Disorder and panic attacks (I know, fun right?). So I've had to live with those since 4th grade, I was like maybe 9 or 10. Anyway there's this Xbox game called Alice: Madness Returns and I would play it (bad idea because it's creepy and I don't like creepy). I would play this game in the early evening/at night and for some strange reason I wouldn't have panic attacks later that night. Of course the anxiety meds I had to turn my brain off so I could sleep probably helped.

[feelsugh]

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These facts aren’t really random but anyway:

1.) I’m starting Uni this year and really wanna become an elementary school teacher (even though I change my mind about my profession every two seconds lmao)

2.) I like to do many things lightly and wanna try out a lot of things and I don’t like the feeling of being trapped

3.) I used to be a big One Direction fan and promised myself I wouldn’t like another band anymore but now I’m really into kpop and like around 3000 bands idk what’s wrong with me

[phatcrybvby]

What if we just crashed