Possible trigger warning for abandonment/neglect/abuse mainly in friendships
Throughout my time, I always thought I was pretty good person. Especially when young, I tried to be friendly, open, and helpful to the people around me.
Looking back now, people took advantage of that. Not even in a "mean girl" way either. They didn't even have to act like a typical bully to be abusive, they just had to be my friend.
I was NEVER given the same energy back when I pumped love into a relationship.
I have been everything BUT human in every relationship I've ever had.
EDIT: Not even just in every relationship, but in every ENVIRONMENT. School, home, etc.
2nd EDIT: This is one of the primary reasons why I've come to believe I could be Autistic. The way I function just seems SO fucking polar opposite from the others around me. Also, people just don't fucking like you. 🙃