#not sero rambles

[awkwardserohanta]

I suck

Because I haven't been on the awkward discord server for like 3 weeks because I've either been so busy or stressed and I needed to take a break from doing so much, which is why I've been less active on here too, and people keep asking if I'm alright and I am, but I totally spaced about the Secret Santa exchange and now I have anxiety and basically I'm a horrible human being and I feel so bad.

Tl;dr - I hate myself for being a shitty friend to everyone 😞

[awkwardserohanta]

Hey, I feel you. Sometimes you think you're getting better but then something happens and it feels like everything is on ground zero. But there are people that will love and support you through it! I'm here if you ever need me. Loved ones can really help you pick up the pieces! Sorry for rambling- But like I'm proud of you and I believe in you <3 I hope you'll start to feel better soon!

You are so right!! That's exactly how it was, I was moving forward but then got pushed 3 steps back.

But thank you for being proud of me and believing in me 😭💕

Since answering your previous ask, I've been doing ALOT better. Gotten a lot of things done that have been weighing on me and am in a better frame of mind!

I've been very much neglecting this blog and am hoping to get back on top of things!!

[awkwardserohanta]

Is it weird that I’m the only one in my friend group that likes anime? They don’t know I like it, though. But I feel weird?

Not necessarily! I've talked to some of my online friends about this: Why is it so normalized and even ENCOURAGED to be obsessed with sports, but then someone likes anime/manga and we're automatically weirdos?? I honestly feel like that's alot of the reason I didn't embrace my true weebness until just the last year or so.

If it's not something you're comfortable sharing with them per se, find someone else you can share it with! Online friends! There's PLENTY of us who are giant weebs! Or, maybe even start small with a single good friend from your friend group you trust.

Please feel free to message me if you want to talk about it more anon! I'm always willing to lend an ear 💕

[awkwardserohanta]

Safe Mode

So, a follower recently brought it to my attention that if you're under 18 and have to have safe mode enforced, it's marking certain posts as sensitive (that clearly aren't) that others can see just fine. Because I can see all of these "sensitive" posts just fine.

However, what's most frustrating to me, is that it's not even flagged for me to review? So I can't fix it for those who can't see it?? I'm not sure what to do.

😑😑😑

[awkwardserohanta]

Hhhhhhhh I just realized I haven't checked on you in awhile- How are you doing? Are you feeling okay? Are you having a good day? dO I NEED TO FIGHT SOMEONE FOR YOU????

You're so sweet 😭 thank you so much for thinking of me!!

Ahh, well...I thought I was doing better? but then last night I had, what I think was, a stress induced panic attack. And it was so bad I had to call my good friend and have him calm me down because I couldn't stop hyperventilating and crying 😔

I'm doing better today though? I'm just going through a giant transition period and I feel like I'm dying of stress.

I'm sorry this isn't the happiest response, but I very much appreciate you checking in on me! Means the world to me honestly 💕💕💕

[awkwardserohanta]

Hand reveal? Art? Requests? Have people send Sero edits? A tape sculpture lol??

Bless you anon for not being afraid of me🙏🙏🙏 So like I definitely don't mind doing a hand reveal? It's funny, I get it (I actually don't), but I was hoping to do something better than that. Because let's be honest: no one really cares about my hand 💁‍♀️

The extent of my drawing skills equates to about cute stick figures 😂 See below for reference ⬇️

Lololol, I'm sure I could probably draw, just haven't really tried? I'm better at writing tbh. But if you guys wanna see a badly drawn stick Sero, I'm your girl 👋

Sero edits could be fun!! Out of everything I'd lean towards this the most!

TAPE SCULPTURE

😂😂😂

[awkwardserohanta]

💕📝🔑

💕 First fav fictional character is Chandler from Friends! In case you haven't noticed from all my Friends gifs I post, it's my favorite TV show ever!!! And Chandler is high-key my spirit animal. This gif of him is me in a nutshell 😂

Second favorite is Megaman! But specifically Megaman from the Megaman Battle Network game series for the Game Boy Advance 😁 My favorite game in the whole world is part of that series! But okay, like LOOOOOK

SO BADASS!! I'd go into more detail on why I like him, but it'd involved a bunch more context, haha 😊

📝 My favorite quote is pretty much a representation of my life, because it's a very real and constant phenomenon:

'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

🔑 Honestly the key to my heart is super simple!! Make me laugh, be there for me, and keep me fed 😂

[awkwardserohanta]

Is anyone else having the problem that, they're getting notifications for a blog post, but then when they go to look at the main blog page, nothing's there? And like, I can see the new post on my main feed, but not the blog's home page itself. This is been happening on my main account. Idk if it's my app, my main blog, or the other blog itself. I still need to go through and review my posts...there's just literally thousands of posts and I haven't had time yet. Dunno if that has to do with it either.

Thoughts? It's making me grumpus ☹