#not write

[skeletal-spire-man]

my fingers are killing me

I have to write. Over 3k words on paper.

with my hands.

and in a legible handwriting too.

dies

Impossible

[zenithgays]

so @lustrous-dreams-art had comms open for emblemcon and i got a cute little bean comm of kiwi <3 <3 <3 one of the summoners of all time

[aroyaltailor-archived-dead]

Writing this in order to have it digitally carved into stone. I won't be archiving the blog again. Every time I've done so? I can't not take responsibility for it, but I still know that depression was one of the driving factors of the decision at the time. But anyways. I have work today, Thursday and Friday. I'll be arranging a meeting with a therapist soon and hopefully I'll be able to have a professional I can discuss these things with. So I guess for now?

Punch me in the face if I ever archive this blog again.

[postergirlwithnoposter]

Since The incident at the hospital royally messed me up, I do need PT on my back, hips, and knees. The physical therapist is going to assess me first and see if maybe I need at home PT. Which makes me want to scream because we just don't have the space. 🙃 Either way, physical therapy will be happening. Also I don't have congestive heart failure like I was told by the discharge nurse... who sent me home with a huge ass scale to my weigh myself and an oddly specific diet I'd have to be on. SO glad I got a second opinion from *MY* primary. 😒 fucking idiots at [redacted]. Fatphobic jerks! HOWEVER...

Lungs sound peachy! And my pulse ox is amazing! Labs also came back great. And my iron level is on the rise! WOO! And I must have not had a blood clot like my initial labs had indicated that I *could* have (something called a D-Dimer... was negative or some shit). So, that's a plus!

It's just my mobility that's an issue, and wouldn't have been an issue had The Incident not happened. Fuckers. 🤬

[exnusquam]

Ooc.; still not feeling up to writing a whole lot today, sorry gaymers

[proxythe]

i really don't understand where anyone is coming from when it comes to reload Aki. he is terrible in p4au but reload is literally perfect

i think a lot of people can word this better than me but. the issue with reloadhiko is the fact that they leaned in so heavily to adding moments that allude to the fact that p4au is his (and the others) canon futures. obviously i knew that to be true in general, but since p4au is so ass it hurts to see that they had to assassinate akihiko in reload to make him fit with how he becomes in p4au. if that makes sense

if they completely ignored p4aus existence i think they probably wouldve wrote akihiko way better 😭 but alas. protein obsessed meathead coming through

also i was annoyed with how much he yapped about training so either im fake as hell & i just dont remember if he did it that much in the og Or im onto something. shrug

[upsidedownwithemmy]

hello hi good morning it’s tattoo day I feel ill 🥹