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Been spit balling fic ideas with @crazy4orcas tonight and now I can almost see this one coming together :D

#shen writes #not yet technically #but i am plotting

I don't know what to write here. I think, perhaps, as I go on I'll figure it out. It's so... Odd. That I memorialize those that mean, that meant, so much to me in words. I imagine it's how the ancients imagined their loved ones in the stars, in heaven. At the end really is the wrong time though. I should've captured the beginning. The fear. The excitement. The fall. The feeling I felt just looking into your eyes, as they answered mine. Whether in happiness, heat, excitement, warmth, or sorrow. You were there. You were there through sadness, depression, anxiety. You didn't always understand them though, and I think that'll be part of our undoing. Through lazy mornings, birthdays, parties, family, and funerals. You were there, in the middle. I felt like I truly had someone to depend on through all the doctor's appointments, and pain. I still remember my birthday. The lazy morning. The kisses. The closeness. The love. I still feel it when I hug you, but fleetingly. I still have a list of times when I have felt utterly, completely, in love. I haven't written in it for over a year. It's been months since this felt right. Since before early Summer. We started growing apart. You fucked me over. We agreed to try. Nothing happened. I'm moving forward. Trying to do therapy, get my life together again. You were there. Until you weren't. I'm sorry for all I've done. I'm sorry that this chance soured so suddenly and so much. I'm not a good partner anymore. I tried. I'm sorry. It was always going to be temporary. But damn does it fucking hurt. I'm glad we had the good times. I'm sorry it went bad. I'm thankful for all the love we had. But it's gotta end. Before there's no more love. Before there's no going back.

#writing #breakup #not yet technically #relationship #I'm fucked up fam