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[mintator]

A beautiful serenade

[mayor-mayumi]

Not acnl related but I just had to share this beautiful piece of work with everyone! My love and I are finally immortalized in art to commemorate nine wonderful years together, and I couldn’t be happier! Biiiiiig shoutout to @days-e for blessing us with her talent!

[mintator]

Trapped between a box and a chair

[squish666-blog]

Hello Everyone! Along with my account here, I have a twitter account I just recently made for my art! If you'd like more updates on my art, please go follow! ❤️

[mayor-of-lilyleaf]

Hey there! :) Do you like cats? Well I just made a tumblr for my crazy kitties called @thecatinthebag feel free to check it out! Sorry for this being unrelated to animal crossing stuff. Thank you! :)

[peachescrossing-nya]

Ya know I think now that I actually have a monday routine for when I come home, that when something small messes it up my anxiety just goes haywire. My mom always buys me like, jalapeno cheetos?, and i always eat them when watching Scorpion after my music lessons, but. BUT. My mom took them while I was at my lesson and ate them. The catch? She’s sick and I literally just got over my own cold and I can’t eat them. Also, she didn’t think to get a bowl which is just mean considering last week I grabbed bowls for all the snacks like a starving hiker. I just- I don’t understand what made me so sad? I was looking forward to eating them but it might just be the fact that my routine was messed up, but I was crying??? I’m so messed up because of that now though... 

I’m not entirely sure what that means for me but damn I feel so like, spoiled and stupid and weak.

[peachescrossing-nya]

ahahaha guess who overexerted her left wrist and now has to wear a tensor bandage until it gets better?

Me! That’s who! I wasn’t careful enough haha and our band concert last night was probably what made me overexert my wrist, along with band practice today. I really should be more careful because it was really painful ;-;

Anyways, my mom pre-ordered pokemon moon for me on friday! I’m so excited! Also, it’ll be great for after I come home from pit band practice! Let me know what you guys think of the game if you get it! That would be so cool :3

[peachescrossing-nya]

I just don’t understand my feelings. Inside I’m a mess and I want to just breakdown for once and let everything out but I can’t. I’ve tried. I just get tired with myself and stop feeling at all, which to me is worse than at least feeling something. I can’t even distinguish my feelings from each other and I’m literally lost in myself. It’s like I’m living two separate lives lol. I’m a sad person when I’m alone because I finally let my guard down. I think only 1 of my friends has ever seen me cry and I would go to her right now if I could and just stay with her because she’s great. She’s my best friend and I’m so glad we’ve friends all these years. Thank you, Sarah, because you’re so, so great. I just wish I could shake this feeling. It’s practically consumed me, along with the idea of failure. I don’t do anything anymore and it’s killing me because I’ve let everyone down. I can’t handle what’s happening and I just want to be able to be successful and do my homework and stop lying and just, I want to be so much more than I am capable of. If anything, I feel as if I’m the background character in my own story. Sure, I think I get butterflies every time I look at Josh or he looks at me. that doesn’t matter. I’ve been this way for almost 10 years and it just gets worse with every waking moment. I’m too forgetful, I’m not productive, I’m probably failing my classes because I go home and feel the same emptiness I feel everyday, I don’t end up doing anything, and worst of all, I just stand there and wallow. I was like that for the whole hour my parents were out on a walk. it’s strange. I don’t understand my feelings and I don’t understand why I feel so heavy all the time and i certainly don’t understand why I just can’t breakdown and let everything out. if I do, the breakdowns are small and leave all kinds of residual feelings that make me feel worse than before. I’m sorry, but I don’t know what is going on and it’s been like this for so long now that I’ve only started questioning it at the moment because I’m realizing just how different I am from all my other friends. i tried cutting once, but I didn’t feel anything from that either. I found nothing. I don’t like to talk about it because I though hoo boy maybe it’ll do something for me but in actuality, it did shit. I’m still just as muddled and heavy and empty and sad and confused and so, so damaged by myself that I can’t even begin to understand the severities of this because I don’t know any. I just know my anxiety is getting worse by the day and my family either doesn’t care or doesn’t believe somethings wrong. It’s as if I need someone professional to tell my parents somethings wrong with me for them to believe it. I doubt my school is going to do anything because it’s school and if you can’t see an illness, it isn’t there. The only problem is that it is in fact there and I constantly feel as if I have to scream and yell just for them to understand. They won’t, simply because “I’m fine” physically. my mental state is anything but fine and i feel it everyday. This isn’t seasonal because I’ve been this way since last year, only I was too afraid to come out and say anything because i was afraid of being bullied like I was towards the last years of elementary school, four years ago. I apologize if this was a hindrance to read but I don’t have an inkling of what to do about my feelings and such, but you guys are so wonderful and helpful. <3 I love you all. (I also don’t know tumblr too well and I would have put this under a read more but alas I do not know how.)